You have saved me

For the many people who gave me hope when I had none.

                   

    






















   You have saved me

I remember sitting alone. Holding two brothers photos.
Suicide was their escape from the cold and heartless world.

Two Ojibwa/Mexican boys who saw no road except death as peace.

I caressed my 30-30 rifle.
I didn't see any reason to keep going.
Their death laid heavy on my soul.

The phone  started to ring. I answered the call.

A old voice with kindness. My Grandmother begin to speak to me.
"We miss and love you baby. I want to see you. The family need you. Are you Ok? Grandma need her baby boy alive and strong."

I hung the phone up.
I put the 30-30 in the closet.
My Grandmother knew somehow I needed kind words. She saved me.














   















I was drinking myself to death.
I lost my first true love.
I saw no reason to give a s**t.

My friends were not helping in Germany.
Drinking was our peace.

My time in Germany was getting short.
I decided to say goodbye to my old lover.

I went to her.
I found her crying.

She yelled at me.
Told me he is dead. Are you happy?

I told her I knew nothing and I was sorry.
I held her for three days.

I brought her good whiskey and food.
Insured she was Ok.

She asked "Why was I  being kind to her?
I wasn't kind to you."

I kissed her forehead.
Silence was my answer.
I came to her for a goodbye.
I tried to save her.
Somehow I saved myself too.


Life is a fair journey. We must love and protect our family and friends.
Kindness bring kindness. Forgiveness need time and a lot of love.

We must be saved and we must return the kindness.

Laughter is life. We must hold on to it.
  
                         Coyote
                      March  2011

Author's Note

Any mistakes. Please advice. Never too old to learn. Life is hard. We will need many people to assist and love us.

Reviews

[emmajoy]

Mistakes don't matter when someone writes from the heart. To alter a poet or writer's words is like removing a freckle ..

What a wonderful tribute to those very precious people in your life.. This truly is more than sincere .. more than special. Thank you so much for sharing.

[T.W. Early]

very touching work. like it. speaks from the heart.

[Thea Fuentebella]

the last line made a great big boom of an applause. this is a very beautiful, realistic, reflective, tender and excellent masterpiece. it's so full of realization. small miracles happen everyday and we don't even notice it. captivating work, coyote. bravo!

[Tapsi]

the piece is truly an amazing work. love gives us d strength to go when all else perishes......ur poem gave a shape to this feeling....great :)

[Maureen Mwaniki]

I loved this..almost brought a tear to my eyes but i settled for a weight on my chest(am a tough girl:D)
i tried to save her but somehow i saved myself too..that was my favourite line!
When the world and fate conspire to give us pain and living is imposible we dont quite see it then but its the one time our friends and people we love conspire 2 help us through it!!

[Art Sun]

Nice poem my friend...life is filled with harshness and loss it is only when we realize how important we are to others and how they are so important to us that we can see the light at the end of the tunel...nice

[Lowesy]

Very well done, thoroughly enjoyed this one. I found the story intriguing and excellent. The point you make of saving others to save yourself is a motto I stand by everyday of my life. I'm always thinking there are others' worse off than me, it's up to me to help if no one else will. I try and make people laugh because laughter is the medicine to the cancer that is depression.
Mark

[Mark]

"I tried to save her. Somehow I saved myself too" is the best thing I have heard in a while

[Antonio Valentino]

Dear man, the style of your poetry should never be altered. Your words drift along the beat of the mother, each phrase pulsing in the smoke that is leaving the fire. Nobody here has more heart then you my kind friend. You are the soul of the tear and the heart of the wandering. Never stop being you Coyote. Keep on bringing out the vainshing breed of humility and compassion, in all of nature's children.

Blessings.
Antonio

[I've Killed Lions]

I really like it and the message inside of it. The poem itself is well done. The words paint a picture of how you need someone to help you go through things.

[Nothing Personal]

Another heartfelt piece, a glimpse into the dark and shady life, it's utter meaninglessness and yet managing to come out of it because of people we love and care and the strength they provide to us. Beautiful. I like the pictures too..Adds more sense to your poetry,,