You have saved me

For the many people who gave me hope when I had none.

                   

    






















   You have saved me

I remember sitting alone. Holding two brothers photos.
Suicide was their escape from the cold and heartless world.

Two Ojibwa/Mexican boys who saw no road except death as peace.

I caressed my 30-30 rifle.
I didn't see any reason to keep going.
Their death laid heavy on my soul.

The phone  started to ring. I answered the call.

A old voice with kindness. My Grandmother begin to speak to me.
"We miss and love you baby. I want to see you. The family need you. Are you Ok? Grandma need her baby boy alive and strong."

I hung the phone up.
I put the 30-30 in the closet.
My Grandmother knew somehow I needed kind words. She saved me.














   















I was drinking myself to death.
I lost my first true love.
I saw no reason to give a s**t.

My friends were not helping in Germany.
Drinking was our peace.

My time in Germany was getting short.
I decided to say goodbye to my old lover.

I went to her.
I found her crying.

She yelled at me.
Told me he is dead. Are you happy?

I told her I knew nothing and I was sorry.
I held her for three days.

I brought her good whiskey and food.
Insured she was Ok.

She asked "Why was I  being kind to her?
I wasn't kind to you."

I kissed her forehead.
Silence was my answer.
I came to her for a goodbye.
I tried to save her.
Somehow I saved myself too.


Life is a fair journey. We must love and protect our family and friends.
Kindness bring kindness. Forgiveness need time and a lot of love.

We must be saved and we must return the kindness.

Laughter is life. We must hold on to it.
  
                         Coyote
                      March  2011

Author's Note

Any mistakes. Please advice. Never too old to learn. Life is hard. We will need many people to assist and love us.

Reviews

[emmajoy]

Mistakes don't matter when someone writes from the heart. To alter a poet or writer's words is like removing a freckle ..

What a wonderful tribute to those very precious people in your life.. This truly is more than sincere .. more than special. Thank you so much for sharing.

[EMMIE]

Well...what a testimony! I love the pictures, I love that you are man enough to share your flaws with the world. Very personal poem I loved it!

[Valentine]

A very deep and emotional write..many people if they would admit it are survivors like you..not for all the same reasons ,,but from the pain in their own lives,,it takes strength to rise above it and I am so thankful that you did..Kathie

[Leslie Philibert]

I enjoyed this, not only the great retro pictures that ideally accompany the poem (I don`t like poems with pictures, but here it fits exactly) but also the honest and well written text. I believe it, which is one of the best things you can say about a poem.

[Coyote Poetry]

The retro era was a good one. Thank you for the comment.

[Frieda P]

You always touch me in a special way. After I read your poetry I am satiated as if after a satisfying meal. I ingest you like lovely music when it invades my soul.

[LA Lorena]

I love your writes Coyote. Why? Because they always feel like I am sitting down with a good friend, talking and listening over a cup of hot tea. Your presense here is a comfort. :)

[Coyote Poetry]

Thank you for the kind words. I do appreciate.

[Edward]

A very nice write coyote! I'm glad your here to share this piece with us

[Neva Flores Smith - Cha..]

beautiful wisdom penned here Coyote.

[quinfinn]

your writes are consistently raw and real and this is what makes them so compelling and fun to read...should someone ever ask me who is the writer here with the greatest degree of pure life and honsety in their work i will always be pointing to Coyote Poetry!

[Levi Levin]

There is always hope, for the hopeless in this life I have found. I'm glad grandma called!

[light and ashes]

Great wisdom in these words. We all need angels to help pick us up. I have been blessed to meet some who have done so for me also. I thank God for that. We must treat people with kindness and understanding. You never know what they are going through, beautiful poem.