You have saved me

For the many people who gave me hope when I had none.

                   

    






















   You have saved me

I remember sitting alone. Holding two brothers photos.
Suicide was their escape from the cold and heartless world.

Two Ojibwa/Mexican boys who saw no road except death as peace.

I caressed my 30-30 rifle.
I didn't see any reason to keep going.
Their death laid heavy on my soul.

The phone  started to ring. I answered the call.

A old voice with kindness. My Grandmother begin to speak to me.
"We miss and love you baby. I want to see you. The family need you. Are you Ok? Grandma need her baby boy alive and strong."

I hung the phone up.
I put the 30-30 in the closet.
My Grandmother knew somehow I needed kind words. She saved me.














   















I was drinking myself to death.
I lost my first true love.
I saw no reason to give a s**t.

My friends were not helping in Germany.
Drinking was our peace.

My time in Germany was getting short.
I decided to say goodbye to my old lover.

I went to her.
I found her crying.

She yelled at me.
Told me he is dead. Are you happy?

I told her I knew nothing and I was sorry.
I held her for three days.

I brought her good whiskey and food.
Insured she was Ok.

She asked "Why was I  being kind to her?
I wasn't kind to you."

I kissed her forehead.
Silence was my answer.
I came to her for a goodbye.
I tried to save her.
Somehow I saved myself too.


Life is a fair journey. We must love and protect our family and friends.
Kindness bring kindness. Forgiveness need time and a lot of love.

We must be saved and we must return the kindness.

Laughter is life. We must hold on to it.
  
                         Coyote
                      March  2011

Author's Note

Any mistakes. Please advice. Never too old to learn. Life is hard. We will need many people to assist and love us.

Reviews

[emmajoy]

Mistakes don't matter when someone writes from the heart. To alter a poet or writer's words is like removing a freckle ..

What a wonderful tribute to those very precious people in your life.. This truly is more than sincere .. more than special. Thank you so much for sharing.

[Judy Ponceby]

This is wonderful. A beautiful tribute to those who cared and your caring of others. Well done. :)

[Deborah Leah Krempa]

Beautifully written and wisdom shines through the page... Thank you for sharing. Debileah

[JanuaryDreamer♥]

wow Coyote :) truly amazing! i loved this poem!! nice job :) there is actually a really cool country song by Kenn Chesney called You Saved Me :) its one of my faves!

[Ladysue]

you speak with words of wisdom. laughter is life. kindness bring kindness...this was so heartfelt and filled with the power of love...beautiful...

[?]

Truly heartfelt Coyote, You always write from your heart and it touches so many.
All it takes is one word, one hug, one smile, just one.
Nicely written and expressed. Loved the ending

[Brie]

An honest and heartfelt piece. It becomes more personal and relatable with the added pictures. Thank you.
Just a little note about spelling, overall nicely written.

[The Rock And Roll Cowbo..]

All it takes is the words of one lovede one tomake a diference... that is why spreading the love is so important.