You have saved me

For the many people who gave me hope when I had none.

                   

    






















   You have saved me

I remember sitting alone. Holding two brothers photos.
Suicide was their escape from the cold and heartless world.

Two Ojibwa/Mexican boys who saw no road except death as peace.

I caressed my 30-30 rifle.
I didn't see any reason to keep going.
Their death laid heavy on my soul.

The phone  started to ring. I answered the call.

A old voice with kindness. My Grandmother begin to speak to me.
"We miss and love you baby. I want to see you. The family need you. Are you Ok? Grandma need her baby boy alive and strong."

I hung the phone up.
I put the 30-30 in the closet.
My Grandmother knew somehow I needed kind words. She saved me.














   















I was drinking myself to death.
I lost my first true love.
I saw no reason to give a s**t.

My friends were not helping in Germany.
Drinking was our peace.

My time in Germany was getting short.
I decided to say goodbye to my old lover.

I went to her.
I found her crying.

She yelled at me.
Told me he is dead. Are you happy?

I told her I knew nothing and I was sorry.
I held her for three days.

I brought her good whiskey and food.
Insured she was Ok.

She asked "Why was I  being kind to her?
I wasn't kind to you."

I kissed her forehead.
Silence was my answer.
I came to her for a goodbye.
I tried to save her.
Somehow I saved myself too.


Life is a fair journey. We must love and protect our family and friends.
Kindness bring kindness. Forgiveness need time and a lot of love.

We must be saved and we must return the kindness.

Laughter is life. We must hold on to it.
  
                         Coyote
                      March  2011

Author's Note

Any mistakes. Please advice. Never too old to learn. Life is hard. We will need many people to assist and love us.

Reviews

[emmajoy]

Mistakes don't matter when someone writes from the heart. To alter a poet or writer's words is like removing a freckle ..

What a wonderful tribute to those very precious people in your life.. This truly is more than sincere .. more than special. Thank you so much for sharing.

[sette]

this is one fitting tribute to someone so dear to you my friend

[Coyote Poetry]

We must be saved and we must save people. Thank you dear friend for reading and the kind words. I do appreciate.

[Soul Fire]

A heartfelt piece... Touching. Truly written from the heart

[ms. barrie]

Very heart-felt, eloquently written poem, words of wisdom weaved through out this write, one can learn from, gain strength from. this is an incredible write, i also enjoyed the fact you took the time out to post pictures, the moments in your past, little glimpses of your life. thank you for sharing something full of wise words and again, encouragement.

[teardrop]

what an amazing story here, sweet write

[anne p. murray- LadeeAn..]

What a wonderful story. A tribute to those you loved and who loved you back strong. Such sincerity in your words. You are a very special man

[A. J. Bozdar]

In my opinion, you should read a little more. You did good work to transcribe your thoughts. I liked it. It is real writing that what comes in your mind, put on canvas. Just avoid the amalgam of words, no matter you write from your soul but try to read it first. I'll help you to understand where are the mistakes.

take care

[Coyote Poetry]

You are very kind. I learn money mean little in a life. To have a child whisper I love you Grandpa is the real gold in a life.

[Robbie~xoxo~]

By divine intervention your grandmother saved you...she is a blessing! You have written such a beautiful testimony to what Life is and can be. This is wonderfully penned from the heart

[Salar Majak]

you are so very right in every single word you said, i needed this, really did, and my eyes teared up, thanks.

[Circe]

A heartfelt, emotional, honest, personal piece of survival, triumph and love, really difficult to write about sometimes but you did an excellent job. Thanks for sharing.