We can learn kindness from living and seeing hate and violence.
Father's eyes and anger
Is my Father's eyes and anger. Are they mine now?
I told you. I love you. I need you.
Love should bring calm and peace.
Violence. A hidden demon. Can strike without thought.
Sweet friend. Kind lover. Did you see the monster?
I tried to lock the demon up. He tried to escape.
I must walk away for a moment. Deep breathes and counting to ten.
My world is falling apart. Like my Father's world did. He took the bad road. Pissed off and violence.
I will keep quiet. Do my best to stay strong. Ain't easy when your world is falling down around you.
We need kind words. We need a lot of patience. A lot of love and forgiveness.
I will pray to the God of life and death Give me wisdom and strength.
Coyote 7 Feb 1989
My Father
When I look into the mirror. Do I see you my father?
Have I become what I despised all my life? Have my eyes. Your violence become mine?. Everyday I learn more loss. Loss of dreams. Lost of desires.
Will I become like you? Give up. Show spirit only when I'm violence or excited?
Can I stop my journey to man-hood? My eyes from hiding tears. Gentleness.
Have I travel too far? Is the blood too strong?
Am I destine to hurt everyone? I have loved.
If I chose my own road. Why do I follow my father sadness.
Coyote 27 April 1989
Sins of the fathers
My father fought in wars. Killed in battle that expanded to the real world.
He was a Mexican/Ojibwa man with no place to go. Hated for his color and race.
He demanded respect and never allow anyone to look down at him. His anger and violence controlled his mind and heart.
He told me. "You will get a education and make them respect you. I won't allow you to live my life."
My father watched me succeed. He told me often. "Don't allow my sins to become your sins. I have killed, done bad things. You must overcome the sins of your father."
Now I have lived a good life. "My father's sins made me go in the right direction. Sins of our father's need to teach us a better way."
He asks me once. "Remember son. You must pray for me. Children must pray for their parent to be allow to find peace."
I pray he is with his Soldier brother's in paradise. Drinking to a good day. I believe a kind God forgive the sins of men lost in the turmoil of hate and prejudice.
The sin of our father's must teach us the better road.
I've always had issues with my father but legally I cannot talk about that until my censorship ends in 2014. This really made me sit up and think about so many things.
Thank you ever so much for publishing this, very well written my friend :)
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you are quite an expressive person and impressive. You open up your emotions well. One thing education don't guarntee respect. Respect is earned. Wonderful write!!
Well and thoughtfully written. The demons can try and take us the wrong road but we do have a choice and you have obviously made the right ones:
`Now I have lived a good life. My father's sins made me go in the right
direction. Sins of our father's need to teach us a better way.'
I love the way you have added the third poem to bring us up to date. Sorry about your Dad - is that recent or just recently written about?
`The sin of our father's must teach us the better road' - such a valuable lesson and so much better than when we just do the same old things. Well put.
Coyote these three poems made me cry. Makes me feel for your father.
I am sorry he was many times treated with disrespect.. he gave you good advice that you have followed. Yes, we must pray for our fathers and listen to our elders.. beautiful , wise words.
This is deep! I have a lot of respect for you for writing this short collection of poems, and most importantly I can relate to some of the things I've read here. My dad has done some things I'm not proud of in the past and when I look in the mirror I'm freaking glad that I've turned out different. So keep writing dude, awesome poem!
I wish, no one had to such endure violence at the hand of a love one, having experienced this sad fact at the hand of a family member, in my immediate family, but I know this is "pie in the sky" thinking. You have taken your darkness and written a brilliant series of poems, emphasizing the strength of the human soul for growth, in overcoming this taint. Thank you, for sharing this inspiring works with us.
A Poet and writer who love to read and write.
My pleasure is reading about the bad and good in a life.
Also to honor the Poets/Writers of the past by reading their words.
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