Sins of our father's.

We can learn kindness from living and seeing hate and violence.

  Father's eyes and anger
                       
 
  
Is my Father's eyes and anger.
Are they mine now?
 
I told you.
I love you.
I need you.
 
Love should bring calm and peace.
 
Violence.
A hidden demon.
Can strike without thought.
 
Sweet friend.
Kind lover.
Did you see the monster?
 
I tried to lock the demon up.
He tried to escape.
 
I must walk away for a moment.
Deep breathes and counting to ten.
 
My world is falling apart.
Like my Father's world did.
He took the bad road.
Pissed off and violence.
 
I will keep quiet.
Do my best to stay strong.
Ain't easy when your world is falling down around you.
 
We need kind words.
We need a lot of patience.
A lot of love and forgiveness.
 
I will pray to the God of life and death
Give me wisdom and strength.
 
                  Coyote
           7 Feb 1989



 
                        My Father
 
                
When I look into the mirror.
Do I see you my father?
 
Have I become what I despised all my life?
Have my eyes.
Your violence become mine?.
Everyday I learn more loss.
Loss of dreams.
Lost of desires.
 
Will I become like you?
Give up.
Show spirit only when I'm violence or excited?
 
Can I stop my journey to man-hood?
My eyes from hiding tears.
Gentleness.
 
Have I travel too far?
Is the blood too strong?
 
Am I destine to hurt everyone?
I have loved.
 
If I chose my own road.
Why do I follow my father sadness.
 
                        Coyote
                 27 April 1989
 
 

                 Sins of the fathers

My father fought in wars.
Killed in battle that expanded to the real world.

He was a Mexican/Ojibwa man with no place to go.
Hated for his color and race.

He demanded respect and never allow anyone to
look down at him.
His anger and violence controlled his mind and heart.

He told me. "You will get a education and make them respect you.
I won't allow you to live my life."

My father watched me succeed.
He told me often. "Don't allow my sins to become your sins.
I have killed, done bad things. You must overcome the sins of
your father."

Now I have lived a good life. "My father's sins made me go in the right
direction. Sins of our father's need to teach us a better way."

He asks me once. "Remember son. You must pray for me. Children must pray for
their parent to be allow to find peace."

I pray he is with his Soldier brother's in paradise. Drinking to a good day. I believe a kind God forgive the sins of men lost in the turmoil of hate and prejudice.

The sin of our father's must teach us the better road.

                            Coyote
                       5 Jan 2011
 
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Author's Note

Thank you reading. Any mistakes please assist. Never too old to learn.
Coyote

Reviews

[Mr Dunne Poetry]

Wow Coyote, this really has me speechless.

I've always had issues with my father but legally I cannot talk about that until my censorship ends in 2014. This really made me sit up and think about so many things.

Thank you ever so much for publishing this, very well written my friend :)

[Fabian G. Franklin]

I have always admired your work. You, in my humble opinion, are one of the best poets on this site. But I don't visit because I get frustrated with the grammar lessons. There are always the same mistakes. I know this is because it is the way you speak so I have a new approach. I'm not going to allow frustration over grammar to keep me from reading your fine work. Just write however you feel it and I will review the content only...but NOT the grammar, syntax, usage or other complexities of the English language. Language has one purpose. That is to communicate our thoughts and feelings. You have some of the most beautiful thoughts and feelings of any poet I have ever read. Personally, I have no problem with there being three poems on the page. They are connected and that is reason enough for that. And they are full of introspection and intelligence,"wisdom" would perhaps be a more appropriate word choice. It's difficult for a hard man who has lived a hard life to find softness, tenderness or gentleness in anything; most of all, himself. And once having found it...there is still the nearly impossible task of giving it meaning or value when to the hardness in him, it seems like fluff and weakness. A hard man even loves hard...he does not know how to be tender and gentle so he barks orders and demands for things which he thinks are right. His way of love is an effort to be righteous. His faith is that he believes if the right thing is done, all will turn out alright. But things seldom if ever turn out alright for anyone. There is no monopoly on pain. That is the one thing there is plenty of to go around. It's difficult to spot the pain in a hard man. He will tough it out, suck it in and go on. He will drink his whiskey in silence and burst into rage when the silence overwhelms him. He really only wants to be tender, to be loving, to be kind and NORMAL...but he has been hard too long. Time will make a stone from dust....but much greater is the time it takes to turn the stone to dust again. I did not learn these things from books. I do not think there are books which teach them. But I know them and YOU know them and perhaps that is enough. The sentiments you express in these three poems are well worth the consideration of everyone and in particular, the families of veterans and soldiers. Highest marks! Keep writing!

[E.H. Monroe]

Unlike your other pieces, this one seems emotionally involved but almost detatched from any care besides the one mentioned. In this, no one is writing for an audience. There is one man, one father and a fuckload of worry about repetition through relation.
You can see the progress of writing from the 89 era and today.
liked the personification in the strength of blood line.
If you decide to place them seperately, keep them in the same era so the reader can see the progression of learning

[Revolutionary]

I like the first poem alot.It is one of your best.WE all see our parents as we get older.My mom died at 54 yrs old.I just turned 40 and I look just like her.sometimes it is hard to look in the mirror because it makes me miss her

[Dev]

This is very nice... but i agree separately they'd sound better

[Ghost]

I really liked Sin of Fathers, I think it was. (: Definitely my favorite of the three. Keep up the good work. Though, I would post these three seperately. It's a bit sloppy to put them together. Make it a little Book if you want. Otherwise - Great job.