Wasted words and lonely nights.

The lessons of love are taught to harden or soften the heart.

Wasted words and lonely nights

I found her sitting alone in the corner of the bar.

 She  get up and hugs me. Give me a simple kiss.

We sit in a strange silence.

I go back in time when the sparkle in her blue eyes could light up the world around her.

I remembered how badly I wanted her .

How I twisted my world backwards just to spend a few moments with her.

My only desire was to kiss her sweet lips and hold her body near.

Now she  sit alone with sad eyes and no Will to love again.

She  ask me "Was I still playing the b*****d still?"

I didn't answer.

I said too many wasted words on her  and my heart broke every time I thought of her her sitting alone. Desiring nothing.

She  was  young when I met her.

 Her  life wasn't so tough.

She was   tender and innocence.

A heart easily broken.

I was just after another conquest.

Just another piece a flesh to add to my sadistic heart.

We sat in a deadly silence.

I ask was she  Ok?

She looks at me and ask" Do you think of me?"

I don't try to apologize.

Words from a liar don't mean a hell of a lot.

I told her I thought of her often.

I worried for her.

I got up and I told her she must rise up and live again.

She looks at me with clear blue eyes.

She whispers "Some of us don't live to use and abuse.

Take time to heal."

I go to my truck and I felt tears rolling down my face.

I broke my own heart when I left her to alone in her bed to go conquer another poor soul.

The funny part she won't know what she taught me.

Lonely nights and repenting for deed done left a empty and sad heart.

                          Coyote

                     15 march 1984

Author's Note

A 26 year poem. Lesson are what make us better when we get the opportunity to love and be kind.

Reviews

[Kathy Van Kurin]

"Wastedwords and Lonely nights"
Coyote,
You know this poem is an honest portrayal of the broken behavior of a broken person. This kind of behavior is played out all the time. Bars are a terrible place because loneliness seeks loneliness and that in others. Broken people do not have wholeness to share.
This was a poem taken from a long time ago it looks like. I hope you can see and feel the needs of others in the wisdom and insights you have gained since then.
Beautifully done.
Blessings,
Kathy

[Coyote Poetry]

I did learn. Karma is a fair judge my friend. Thank you Kathy for reading and the comment. I do appreciate.

[Ruth]

Loves lessons are a slap in the face at times! lol
This portrays that so well love:) Still, through trial and error we imprint the heart on another day1 lol
Awesome poem hon, really powerful!
xx

[Ru Banerjee]

This is so much heartfelt and personal...I really loved the way you described the loneliness and desolation of the woman portrayed here, it has an intense dramatic touch and the feel of an unusual love element that is inherent between the two protagonists of this bittersweet love poem...

[Huggy Bear]

Interesting poem and so full of great depth:) I love it

[Cherry Blossom]

I felt the sadness and that this was so close to your heart this is very heartfelt I can feel that this was beautiful

[Cynthia]

That's really nice, and I love this very much!

[Vicky Zhuang Yi-Yin]

this was good, but there were some grammatical errors which i don't know whether were intentional or not. I liked the meaning in it, of not only learning a lesson, but also this sort of regret that the character has, and I also like the fact that this poem also talks about healing, or at least underlines the fact that although some people won't feel they heal, they some how they know it's happening with time. Good job, and good writings!
-Yin

[Tina Kline]

This is very sad but if we can learn by our mistakes then we've grown but those we hurt by our mistakes, well, that just makes me feel bad. Even if we learn by our mistakes does that justify the hurt and harm we've caused? I often wonder that and I have no answer.

[HorrorMaster]

Is still amazing and I love it.

[Dark Angel]

Awww. That's just sad... We all make mistakes, it's just our job to learn from them. Wonderful description.

[Norma M Sutton]

Lesson's to be learned. So long as we do learn from them, those mistakes aren't a complete loss.