Wasted words and lonely nights.

The lessons of love are taught to harden or soften the heart.

Wasted words and lonely nights

I found her sitting alone in the corner of the bar.

 She  get up and hugs me. Give me a simple kiss.

We sit in a strange silence.

I go back in time when the sparkle in her blue eyes could light up the world around her.

I remembered how badly I wanted her .

How I twisted my world backwards just to spend a few moments with her.

My only desire was to kiss her sweet lips and hold her body near.

Now she  sit alone with sad eyes and no Will to love again.

She  ask me "Was I still playing the b*****d still?"

I didn't answer.

I said too many wasted words on her  and my heart broke every time I thought of her her sitting alone. Desiring nothing.

She  was  young when I met her.

 Her  life wasn't so tough.

She was   tender and innocence.

A heart easily broken.

I was just after another conquest.

Just another piece a flesh to add to my sadistic heart.

We sat in a deadly silence.

I ask was she  Ok?

She looks at me and ask" Do you think of me?"

I don't try to apologize.

Words from a liar don't mean a hell of a lot.

I told her I thought of her often.

I worried for her.

I got up and I told her she must rise up and live again.

She looks at me with clear blue eyes.

She whispers "Some of us don't live to use and abuse.

Take time to heal."

I go to my truck and I felt tears rolling down my face.

I broke my own heart when I left her to alone in her bed to go conquer another poor soul.

The funny part she won't know what she taught me.

Lonely nights and repenting for deed done left a empty and sad heart.

                          Coyote

                     15 march 1984

Author's Note

A 26 year poem. Lesson are what make us better when we get the opportunity to love and be kind.

Reviews

[Kathy Van Kurin]

"Wastedwords and Lonely nights"
Coyote,
You know this poem is an honest portrayal of the broken behavior of a broken person. This kind of behavior is played out all the time. Bars are a terrible place because loneliness seeks loneliness and that in others. Broken people do not have wholeness to share.
This was a poem taken from a long time ago it looks like. I hope you can see and feel the needs of others in the wisdom and insights you have gained since then.
Beautifully done.
Blessings,
Kathy

[Coyote Poetry]

I did learn. Karma is a fair judge my friend. Thank you Kathy for reading and the comment. I do appreciate.

[Talkativeted]

A great poem. I like the story aspect of it.

[TamiViolet]

You have so many experiences from which to draw upon, Coyote. I'm just glad you wrote them down because each one is insightful, vivid, a bit seductive, at times....

You left her alone yet you say that you 'twisted your world backwards just to spend a few moments with her'... I do believe that says something about you... Also, the tears rolling down your face suggests that your character is quite admirable. For whatever reason, you decided to close that particular door, yet it caused you pain and grief...

I enjoyed this, my friend... It's bittersweet...as is life, yes?

[Eagle Cruagh]

This is a very sad poem, but just a slice of life.
Unfortunately almsot every one of us, man and
women has used someone. Of course that does
not make it right, it just explains how we are.

Our sad memories touch us, they touch others.
Too bad that is so hard for us to learn.
The fact that you have written a beautiful poem
about this incident indicates that you have learned
a valuable lesson.

---- Eagle Cruagh

[china]

Wow, this is a lesson well learned but it's always years later that we appreciate the lesson being taught. Some people are able to move on and grow, others are still stuck in the hurt from years ago. The lessons in life is tough but it's even tougher when you try not to go full circle with the experience.

[Desert Dreamer]

Such an emotional poem...and a teaching experience. The best we can do is learn from our mistakes and not repeat them.

[Michael X]

wow, 26 years ago, its great to see you've been writing so long, this poem is passionate, i can see the change in themes and style, compared to your
present work, but still executed with passion, that can only come from
a real poet, excellent job my friend.

[KatiePie]

My God you wrote this 26 years ago? I wasn't even alive then. Thank you for sharing.

[Chirinos20]

I always enjoy reading your old memories. Great job in this peace !

[Sweet_pale_cacophony]

You write so honestly.It always moves me.

[Sasha]

I love it.
Great story behind it.
Hit a couple of painful memories.
there are a few grammatical errors though.
in the description, i think you meant to harden instead of harded.
next in the third stanza second line you perhaps meant asked instead of ask.
Otherwise, Great job. :D