Wasted words and lonely nights.

The lessons of love are taught to harden or soften the heart.

Wasted words and lonely nights

I found her sitting alone in the corner of the bar.

 She  get up and hugs me. Give me a simple kiss.

We sit in a strange silence.

I go back in time when the sparkle in her blue eyes could light up the world around her.

I remembered how badly I wanted her .

How I twisted my world backwards just to spend a few moments with her.

My only desire was to kiss her sweet lips and hold her body near.

Now she  sit alone with sad eyes and no Will to love again.

She  ask me "Was I still playing the b*****d still?"

I didn't answer.

I said too many wasted words on her  and my heart broke every time I thought of her her sitting alone. Desiring nothing.

She  was  young when I met her.

 Her  life wasn't so tough.

She was   tender and innocence.

A heart easily broken.

I was just after another conquest.

Just another piece a flesh to add to my sadistic heart.

We sat in a deadly silence.

I ask was she  Ok?

She looks at me and ask" Do you think of me?"

I don't try to apologize.

Words from a liar don't mean a hell of a lot.

I told her I thought of her often.

I worried for her.

I got up and I told her she must rise up and live again.

She looks at me with clear blue eyes.

She whispers "Some of us don't live to use and abuse.

Take time to heal."

I go to my truck and I felt tears rolling down my face.

I broke my own heart when I left her to alone in her bed to go conquer another poor soul.

The funny part she won't know what she taught me.

Lonely nights and repenting for deed done left a empty and sad heart.

                          Coyote

                     15 march 1984

Author's Note

A 26 year poem. Lesson are what make us better when we get the opportunity to love and be kind.

Reviews

[Kathy Van Kurin]

"Wastedwords and Lonely nights"
Coyote,
You know this poem is an honest portrayal of the broken behavior of a broken person. This kind of behavior is played out all the time. Bars are a terrible place because loneliness seeks loneliness and that in others. Broken people do not have wholeness to share.
This was a poem taken from a long time ago it looks like. I hope you can see and feel the needs of others in the wisdom and insights you have gained since then.
Beautifully done.
Blessings,
Kathy

[Coyote Poetry]

I did learn. Karma is a fair judge my friend. Thank you Kathy for reading and the comment. I do appreciate.

[Abigail T]

My goodness. A lovely poem filled with sadness, longing, and regret. I could feel each emotion as I read through the lines. I feel as though this has happened to many people, men and women alike. Very touching and well done.

[Audrie]

This piece reminds me of confusing lessons that one must experience in order to survive the trials and tribulations that life thrusts our way. Oh what I would give to once again have the opportunity to tell all of my past lovers what they have taught me...very true to life poem/mssg. . . .thank you for sharing...peace, balance and harmony

[Christy Sargent]

I am a sixty-two year old woman with regrets that continue to haunt me. Some things we never let go of. Some lessons very hard to think about. Sorry is not enough in some cases. Lovely poem.

[Morning Star]

" O MY so much much sadness in this piece
though is so sad, but life teaches us by our mistakes
your words capture great imagery
fantastic write!

[Anthony M Smith Jr]

Lessons in life. Life and Light!
TT-TTO-NI-K
Elk

[LeaMarie]

Regret is tough. This poem really takes me there, in emotion and setting. What ever happened to her?

[Liza]

this sad and heartfelt expression shows the differences in intentions between this man and woman
she longed for affection
he longed for physical gratification
this happens so very much
turning into bitter wars and tearful nights; some tears of shame, some tears of guilt

[bbb]

This is quite heartbreaking, because of both people in the poem. Strangely, I can identify with both the writer, and the woman written about. I've been on both sides of this fence, unfortunately. Reading this brought an onslaught of memories. I can only hope that now I am a better person and hopefully have truly learned some things out of all the mistakes. What a great write.

[Marie Harrison]

Powerful poem. I think you are right lessons are what make us sometimes. "What we do with the knowledge we've learned reveals a lot. When we keep repeating the same old mistakes reveals even more about our character. What a wonderful poem for the heart.

[Robert]

i love the style of this poem very uniqe in its flow and pattern. i appercitate the fact that there are some true artists left in the poetry world. i would be honored if you would reveiw some of my work that im compossing for my first book. im new to the website and is in the process of moveing alot of my work here. thanks so much.

how vain it is to sit and write when u haven't stood to live. -a wise soul