Wasted words and lonely nights.

The lessons of love are taught to harden or soften the heart.

Wasted words and lonely nights

I found her sitting alone in the corner of the bar.

 She  get up and hugs me. Give me a simple kiss.

We sit in a strange silence.

I go back in time when the sparkle in her blue eyes could light up the world around her.

I remembered how badly I wanted her .

How I twisted my world backwards just to spend a few moments with her.

My only desire was to kiss her sweet lips and hold her body near.

Now she  sit alone with sad eyes and no Will to love again.

She  ask me "Was I still playing the b*****d still?"

I didn't answer.

I said too many wasted words on her  and my heart broke every time I thought of her her sitting alone. Desiring nothing.

She  was  young when I met her.

 Her  life wasn't so tough.

She was   tender and innocence.

A heart easily broken.

I was just after another conquest.

Just another piece a flesh to add to my sadistic heart.

We sat in a deadly silence.

I ask was she  Ok?

She looks at me and ask" Do you think of me?"

I don't try to apologize.

Words from a liar don't mean a hell of a lot.

I told her I thought of her often.

I worried for her.

I got up and I told her she must rise up and live again.

She looks at me with clear blue eyes.

She whispers "Some of us don't live to use and abuse.

Take time to heal."

I go to my truck and I felt tears rolling down my face.

I broke my own heart when I left her to alone in her bed to go conquer another poor soul.

The funny part she won't know what she taught me.

Lonely nights and repenting for deed done left a empty and sad heart.

                          Coyote

                     15 march 1984

Author's Note

A 26 year poem. Lesson are what make us better when we get the opportunity to love and be kind.

Reviews

[Kathy Van Kurin]

"Wastedwords and Lonely nights"
Coyote,
You know this poem is an honest portrayal of the broken behavior of a broken person. This kind of behavior is played out all the time. Bars are a terrible place because loneliness seeks loneliness and that in others. Broken people do not have wholeness to share.
This was a poem taken from a long time ago it looks like. I hope you can see and feel the needs of others in the wisdom and insights you have gained since then.
Beautifully done.
Blessings,
Kathy

[Coyote Poetry]

I did learn. Karma is a fair judge my friend. Thank you Kathy for reading and the comment. I do appreciate.

[Valentine]

It isn't easy to have to face the wrongs we might have done in our lives, Especially when we openly hurt another human being more than we are hurting ourselves. Valentine

[Coyote Poetry]

My old poetry from the eighties. I did pay. Karma is a very fair judge. Thank you for reading and the comment.

[Lily]

In short words you have captured the spirit of a person so well, great writing although it's a sad piece.
You're decription is so apt, "The lessons of love are taught to harden and soften the heart". I love that.

[Coyote Poetry]

Thank you Lily for reading and the comment. I do appreciate.

[Frank]

This is honest stuff, very. I see the drama of life, the hurting and the pains what we sometimes do to each other. I suspect she know that man repents I suspect that she is still fond of him, you know, like you never forget your first love. And it is more than sex it is more of a play, played out before the Almighty. If you didn't repent you would still be a b*****d, but you are not a b*****d because they don't cry tears of repentance, and they don't go back to face the ones they hurt.

If ll your poems are like this, I don't think I can bear them, so hard to live after doing these things, yet we have all done it and we all are ashamed.

Keep writing, you done good.

[Coyote Poetry]

You are right. We will make many mistakes. We must try not to repeat them. Thank you Frank for reading and the comment.

[ORBLE]

I absolutely love the title and it really was a fantastic poem. The woman is mysterious, I especially love the line 'some of us don't live to use and abuse. Take time to heal', it's true that time heals any sores caused by the past. Another brilliant write - no surprises there!

Ella

PS. I also love the fact that you've kept your poems, definitely something to look back on. Often our writes reflect our experiences, and poems can bring these memories to life whether they are happy or sad they still make us who we are x

[John Jackson (El Juero)]

Yes, John...'to love and be kind'. I have high regard for people who pay attention, learning and growing from missteps. This is sad, because there wasn't a feeling of redemption...She was too broken by then. Thank you for sharing this outstanding story.
Peace, John

[Faraway Sado]

This happens most of the time in a relationship. Your poem is a reality well potraid. Beautiful job done. But i dont understand one thing. If its love, why doesnt it stay forever.

[Dakota]

You have more than one lesson contained in these words.

[Poetic Beauty]

Sounds like she taught you a lot and her word were harsh yet they weren't sugar coated either. You a least learned your lesson. many of us have to learn our lessons in life the hard way.

[JENY]

One of the best poems you have written….
Some minor grammar mistakes….
…But a fantastic story you have packed in your ….poem ….