If I knew.

We learn too late to be quiet. Anger and violence leads only to more pain and sadness.

  If I knew
 
 If I knew.
 I would of  loved more and said less.
 
Sweet memories slip into my mind of us.
Two people loving and holding tight like it was our last moment.
 
I remember walking  hand in  hand with you.
On lonely beaches.
Never more happy.
 
 The sweet times are rare now.
 
 Eyes of youth had faded away with life burdens and losses.
 
 I look into the mirror and see a tire man.
 
 I wish to go back and feel again.
 To hunger for sweet  kisses and love til the morning light.
 
Walk down the naked beaches of Monterey coast.
In a mist of silence with a gentle hand in mine. 
 
 I didn't know laughter and dreams would fade away.
 
 If I knew I would of try to stop time.
 
 Hold you like you were my last breath.
 
                          John Castellenas
                            Coyote

Author's Note

Life is long and hard. My Grandfather told me along time ago. Nothing good to say. Say nothing. I tell my children the same.
Coyote

Reviews

[Nautili]

I love the vulnerability of this poem, you speak of naked beaches, and metaphorically your soul is naked in this poem. You admit you are tired, jaded, uninspired. I love when people are just real.
And you want to fix it, to change it, to feel the vitality of the relationship once again. You are not content to just let the passion dissolve into nothingness. Such an honest work.

[Jade Renee Bacon]

This is a great poem. It gets a point across with a certain subtly. Very good.

[Sam Freeland]

Pains of past memories take measure of our soul
recalling those warm times gives substance to our future
your poem has brought tears to all
and we thank you for sharing such warm saddness

[kelbell0912]

wow..really beautiful. i love it!

[Rhonda]

this is awesome
keep up the good work!

[Jenny DelVecchio]

beautiful, sad, and thought provoking. This is the way a poem should make you feel. I'm almost at loss of word

[Poetic Beauty]

This poem is so true. As time passes we loose our ability to do many things and become too obsessed with other things in life. We need to learn what the real values in life are and hold the ones we love close to us and spend time with them for you never know when the last time will come. Life is unpredictable so I say love the one in our lives that are special with all our hearts and cherish each moment.

[Yesterday Today]

"My Grandfather told me along time ago. Nothing good to say. Say nothing. I tell my children the same."

Good advice! This poem made me think--see myself looking in that mirror and seeing what's left, the remaining shell of wasted years of depression. Good job!

[FireFly15]

I love this. Its so heart felt and passionate.

Wonderful write.

[Knackers]

I think we can all learn a lot from this poem... We all need to take a step back and cherish the wonderful things we have in life, particularly those we love. Excellant poem

[katep1313]

Very honest/introspective. I enjoyed reading this, I'm going to add it to my library and reread it at times because I don't want to forget the message.