If I knew.

We learn too late to be quiet. Anger and violence leads only to more pain and sadness.

  If I knew
 
 If I knew.
 I would of  loved more and said less.
 
Sweet memories slip into my mind of us.
Two people loving and holding tight like it was our last moment.
 
I remember walking  hand in  hand with you.
On lonely beaches.
Never more happy.
 
 The sweet times are rare now.
 
 Eyes of youth had faded away with life burdens and losses.
 
 I look into the mirror and see a tire man.
 
 I wish to go back and feel again.
 To hunger for sweet  kisses and love til the morning light.
 
Walk down the naked beaches of Monterey coast.
In a mist of silence with a gentle hand in mine. 
 
 I didn't know laughter and dreams would fade away.
 
 If I knew I would of try to stop time.
 
 Hold you like you were my last breath.
 
                          John Castellenas
                            Coyote

Author's Note

Life is long and hard. My Grandfather told me along time ago. Nothing good to say. Say nothing. I tell my children the same.
Coyote

Reviews

[Nautili]

I love the vulnerability of this poem, you speak of naked beaches, and metaphorically your soul is naked in this poem. You admit you are tired, jaded, uninspired. I love when people are just real.
And you want to fix it, to change it, to feel the vitality of the relationship once again. You are not content to just let the passion dissolve into nothingness. Such an honest work.

[Ghost of Jupiter]

mmm... " Hold you like you were my last breath" how brilliant this last line is, it pierces my heart every time I read it. Very true and well written piece.

~K~

[Persephone]

This is such a true piece, speaks to me very much. So many of us often think what would we do different if we had known what was to be. Thanks for sharing :)

[Coyote Poetry]

Thank you for your many comments. I do appreciate.

[*** Hey Jude***]

You have a wonderful gift that is shown in this wise and tender poem. The adoration and love you share tug at the heartstrings.
Such passion and truth held within each line, yet the last line is such a treasured reflection.
Your grandfather was a very wise man. “Nothing good to say. Say nothing"
I think it is beautiful that you share these truths in your children. I have no doubt that the wisdom you pass on to them will make this world a bit brighter, just as You do!
I think more can be "said" in actions rather than words ever convey. Always a pleasure my friend ~ :-)

[Dark Tower]

Very beautifully written

[pumpkin head]

Such an inspiring read, very nicely written

[Pax]

romantic and sad..
i like this line :
Hold you like you were my last breath.
good job.

[dark light]

This is amazing and very sentimental poem, nothing else I can say it's just perfect

[∠( ᐛ 」..]

This poem is so inspiring and outstanding. The words really flows to mind. I read this out loud to my friends and family, they said you deserve a 100/100!

[J. F. Charleston]

That's something I wish I could do. Slow time and take in the moments that mean most. I really enjoy stuff like this that help remind me that there are other people trying to do the same.

[lee von cleef]

Time Time, such a riddle to live with ,to live without.