I am so damn tire, my friend.

September poetry number twenty-two-

I am so damn tire.

I am trying..

Today I put a gun to my head tonight.

I am so damn tire.

Once I was brave,

now I know.

I masqueraded a man, fearless.

Death doesn't frighten me.

I have met death and she had kissed me.

I have betrayed all my dreams and now.

I am an old man, forgotten.

I know tonight.

We become, who we supposed to be.

I am so tired, and I feel like,

like a mouse running in circles.

Death don't scare me.

Being weak and useless, does.

I understand Hemingway now.

Maybe a slow death, I do not want.

Death will find us,

we shall welcome her or try to escape her.

You cannot not escape her.

I am tiring my friend.

 

Coyote

Author's Note

Just a poem. I have a few year left.

Reviews

[Katrina Mckeown]

You pen everything so well … a tricky subject that should not be ignored as many suffer from these thoughts of feeling tiresome of life …that’s as much a fact of life as life itself… I value
life and I value death …no matter the circumstances to which they were brought about… I have known ones who have suffered the torments of life after living through too much … hugs…

I understand Hemingway now…

Glad to read your authors note :)
Katrina

[Coyote Poetry]

Thank you dear Katrina. Many suffer alone and they have no release. I saw great men, great soldiers drank themselves to death in my Army days. I couldn't stop them. They would tell me. The damn drink is the only things to blind me from yesterday.

[John the Baptist]

Thanks so much for the author's note, C. You had me going there for a while. You have a point, though. Many do tire of life when the things they value most give way to change. Hemingway was a prime example. Perhaps he was valuing the wrong things.

[Coyote Poetry]

Maybe my friend. Many of the great writers committed suicide. They left us with more questions than answers. Thank you for reading and the comment.

[keith]

always good writes from you.
subject matter, loneliness, depression, suicidal thoughts, such taboo subjects from societal standpoint
it is fact that cannot be ignored ... most if not all have at one time said to them self, 'i am tired, i don't want to do this anymore'
you are a brave soul embracing, putting to paper the utter failure that ALL have had.

(good to see the use of video as introduction! ... i am guilty!)

[Coyote Poetry]

Thank you Keith for reading and the comment. Suicide was a part of my life. I lost two brothers and I tried to understand.

[Sean M. Addams]

Very deep and filled with lots of emotion. Overall a very powerful piece

[Coyote Poetry]

Thank you Sean for reading and the comment.

[Fabian G. Franklin]

I was a tire once. But I can't remember if I was a Michelin radial or a Goodyear, steel belted. But that's where the rubber meets the road. Keep on trying and smile when you feel like crying.

[Coyote Poetry]

I like your saying. A good commercial. Near me in Detroit. We have the giant Michelin tire on highway 94. It welcomed you to the city of Detroit. You are right Fabian. We must keep going forward and we must hope for a good ending. Thank you for reading and the comment.

[jacob erin-cilberto]

"I met death and she has kissed me"
that is such a potent line.
j.

[Coyote Poetry]

Thank you Jacob. Sometimes the devil can be a beautiful lady or a pot hole in the road.

[W. Barrett Munn]

I think we are lying to ourselves if we haven't thought this way at least at some point in life. But once I met once a brilliant mind who told me I was in control of what I thought, that I didn't have to think this way.
I have never looked back since. Tomorrow is too big of curiosity.

Winston

[Coyote Poetry]

The mind my friend. We use only a small part of the brain. I do believe. if we saw too much. We went go insane. You are right. Tomorrow is too big of curiosity. Thank you for reading and the comment. I do appreciate.

[joshua deathdealer]

This sent chills down my spine. For over three years now I've been working in the funeral business. Just being around death all the time, I'm not even 40 yet and your words resonates as similar thoughts of mine. I don't really sense suicidal underlines, for me, but more of a good grasp on the subject and a healthy fear of it. If you remember my works, I delved deep in the helplessness of it all. Today I find comfort in the grand design.. the Designer I'd say.. and I try to find comfort in my relationships..

I hear you Coyote. It's been awhile since I've dropped in and it's quite refreshing to see WC Originals still writing. Cheers my friend.

[Coyote Poetry]

Hello Joshua. Thank you for reading and the comment. I was glad to see your review and I will visit your site now.

[Ken e Bujold]

sentiment and honesty of the poem are refreshing Coyote. I guess some will read and worry about the darkness, hinting at suicide. For me, the poem has a bright light tucked inside as well, a voice of someone who is still here, fighting, who hasn't given in to the urges

ken

[Coyote Poetry]

I am good Ken. Just expressing my thoughts. I was listening to Hank Willian Jr. Thank you for reading and the comment.

[Ken e Bujold]

i am more partial to Jr's Sr...Luke the Drifter one of my favorite song writers of all time

[Coyote Poetry]

I like them all. Music is a part of our life.

[Kim S.]

I am so tire and I feel like,'
like a mouse running in circles.

I can really feel this write, I feel this way a lot, This is quite a write here.
So much emotion in this, trying to find strength at times is hard.

[Coyote Poetry]

Yes dear poet. We will fall down and we get up. many times. Thank you for reading and the comment. I do appreciate.