You can't go back to

Just words

                                   You can't go back to

I wanted everything and I wanted nothing.

You held me so tightly. Made me feel so loved and so needed.

I was fleeing love when the flame was alive and growing.

I left you and abandoned you to descend to heartbreak and a self-made prison of sadness.

Today I remember pale white skin against my flesh and shining eyes of love.

I learn. When love dies. Love is dead. Your sadness became my sadness.

I learn the misfortune act of a foolish man learn too late.

You can't  go back to love that was forsaken and abused.

                        Coyote/John Castellenas

Author's Note

A new poem. I hope you like.

Reviews

[AaronFreitas]

"I wanted everything and I wanted nothing.
You held me so tightly. Made me feel so loved and so needed."
It's amazing how confusing our feelings can be sometimes. Want everything
yet nothing but you know you loved being held and feeling loved.
Awesome write I can definitely relate to :)

[Coyote Poetry]

Thank you Aaron. All of us must learn the value of love.

[Saraswati]

its piercing.."abandoning" is damn cruel..

[Coyote Poetry]

Yes you are right. Karma does demand payment in the end. Thank you Leonaida for reading and the comment.

[Saraswati]

when we abandon someone in our early life i feel future will keep a separate prison for that where we will repent someday.

[Coyote Poetry]

I believe Karma demand payment quickly. I paid in double for my mistakes.

[Saraswati]

yes...karma is just unavoidable :)...ur paying for your past deed :/...

[Coyote Poetry]

Yes, I believe.

[silent poet]

This was beautiful! And usually the way Love/Life works. Until It's gone, Is when most truly want..

[Coyote Poetry]

Yes you are right. We learn too late. We held love and lost her. Thank you for reading and the comment.

[silent poet]

You're very welcome!

[jacob erin-cilberto]

minus the abuse...i did learn this...had the love of my life...was too young to understand this....left that love and then when i realized?

too late, couldn't get her back...there are regrets...

i related to this John....

j.

[Coyote Poetry]

Most of us do. Love is hard when we are young. We think we can live forever. Thank you Jacob for reading and the comment.

[Clara]

One of my favourites. I love this.
Thank you.

[Coyote Poetry]

Thank you Lara. I enjoyed your poetry also. I will return later to read more.

[Clara]

Likewise, but with you.

[carolyn]

It is true, you cannot go back in time. You just have to learn from your mistakes for the future.

[Coyote Poetry]

Yes you are right. Thank you for reading and the comment.

[nazia]

This is so relatable. We all are at times trapped in this dilemma of wanting everything and nothing. Its like we move back and forth.. Beautiful :)

[Coyote Poetry]

You are right. Too bad we can't take back our foolishness. Thank you for reading and the comment.

[Matching Socks]

We only travel back in our hearts and minds to dream of what might have been.
Thank you for sharing your beautiful feelings Coyote.

[Coyote Poetry]

Thank you Ana for reading and the comment. Old places make us wiser and kinder with time.

[Melinda McQueen]

Yeah, when you look back you see things differently and wish to go back and do it over... and better.
A nice expression.

[Coyote Poetry]

If I could. I would do over. But we can't. Become just lessons to teach us. Walk softly and be kind in love.