55 years and wanting more..

Funny how we change view on life. Age teach us to want more and less.

                         55 years and wanting more

Another birthday is here.
August 11th.
I somehow survived 55 years.

I remember when I was part of the know it all generation.
Over 40. Can't trust them.
I wanted to die young.
39 years and done it all.

I did tried to kill myself the old fashion way.
I drank for 20 years.
Booze couldn't kill me.
Woman almost did.

A unholy life can lead you to hell or heaven.
When you dance with the Devil.
You like the dance or not.

Pursuit of woman, adventure and new highs.
Left me alone.

I did find God.
I found God in the ocean.
I found God in the ridges of mountains.
God showed me the free waterfalls.
Only the free-climbers could swim in and be washed of sin by.

I tried to find death.
I volunteer for wars.
I suicide boarded the Winters storm and free climbed every mountain in the western USA

I drank in every tavern on Highway 35 in Texas.
I was saved by people worst off than me.
Drunks tell the truth.

I will turn 55 years old soon.
I tell the young people. Test life, have fun and travel.
You are only young and foolish for a time.

Would I repeat my foolish actions?
I believe I would.

Today I'm a Grandfather.
I have reasons to stay alive.
I want to take my grandson to the ocean.
Take my grandsons to the ridges where you can see forever.

I have lost many good friends and elders.
Today I live become they could not.
Someone must remind their kids.
They were loved once by great people.

Thank you for reading.
Old men speak of the past with honor and respect for things lost and can't
be found.

                          Coyote

Author's Note

Thank you for reading.

Reviews

[Karen]

What a powerful reflection of your life, and so raw honest that it makes me fee like I've read your memoir in a quick minute! Reflection is always one of raw emotion and honesty truth; otherwise, it would be delusion rather than reflection. We live our lives and then think back and wonder whether we've lived at all. And then we have children and grandchildren, and all the things we could have done have come and gone, and it's about them! Great reflective poem. I especially like the second-to-last and last lines about honoring and respecting things lost that can't be found.

[Coyote Poetry]

Thank you Karen for reading and the comment. If we are lucky. We become wise with old age.

[Rose of many colours]

Thanks for the inspiration . I am almost there in age...My kids are adult and has moved on with their lives..Sometimes I don't mind if God take my life.I am 47 .I have goals ,but what is life alone....

[It's Me, The Miracle]

An auto biography depicted in a small poem.....great work.....Your caliber is outstanding.....

[Coyote Poetry]

Thank you for reading and the kind words.

[Tom]

Another tribute poem, this time in honor to the advancing years of man, and the experience gleaned along the way which you so unselfishly display, the good, bad & the ugly !

Top job, really like your style and rawness, makes the best poetry ! ( I believe so anyway)

[Coyote Poetry]

Honesty and rawness is necessary to keep the reader interesting. I agree with your thoughts.

[shallimarRose]

OK now I really feel old.. You're only 54 ? lol
This was a beautiful heartfelt share Coyote.. I felt every line.. I wrote a poem a couple of birthdays ago.. I was so scared to turn the page but the calender was still the same.. I feared what I didnt know .. now I embrace it.. huggs, Rose

[Coyote Poetry]

I feel older. I was born old. I agree with your comment. "I feared what I didn't know..now I embrace it." Thank you for reading and the comment.

[shallimarRose]

You were born old? lol I felt older at 54 then I feel now.. My grandson says after 55 you just reverse your numbers.. But be careful because when he told me that and I tried it I was suddenty 95 and my husband was 26 lol... He really should have thought that out before he tried to cheer me up with it.. hehehe

[Relic]

You share a lot of yourself here Coyote. I like the fact that you said "an unholy life can lead you to hell or heaven. Thanks for sharing your wisdom. Good poem.

[Coyote Poetry]

Funny how you look at life with backward eyes. Seeing the good and bad days. Thank you for reading and the comment.

[Relic]

You're welcome Coyote.