Carter

"Have you ever run from something you're chasing?" I read this from a book i once cherished, and it stuck with me more than anything else.  I couldn't get it out of my head.  I asked myself this question and i came to realize i was.  I was running from myself.  Something i would never escape.  I am often dazed and confused, feeling as if my bones are too fragile to lift.  I gasp and dodge at everything that gets too close.  I tend to blame myself for every thing she did to me, I have kept myself under pressure.  I have been killing myself, while pondering suicide.