Doing Time

It's over now 
I've waited too long 
It's too late for trying
all purpose has gone 

Sadness has seeped 
into the cracks of my soul 
The cruelty of the world
has taken its toll

I want to hide away 
for the rest of my days 
Slowly vanish from sight 
as the shadows fade 

Only a few would notice
if I was no longer there 
Life would go on 
not many would care 

Memories drift away 
on the morning breeze 
My life falls away 
like the autumn leaves 

Pain parades its way 
through my veins
Despair torments my spirit 
in it's deadly game   

Love eludes me 
in it's evil dance 
Staying just out of reach 
never giving me a chance 

Lustful creatures corner me
on every side 
I fight for my virtue
to stay alive 

But the will to go on 
grows weak within 
The struggles too great 
against evil and sin 

I grow weary of sorrow 
of walking alone 
Of having no one to trust
no place to call home 

I want to shut it all down 
and walk away 
Escape from people 
and the games they play 

But I have to go on 
the choice is not mine 
My task won't be over 
until I have done my time 

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

"But I have to go on
the choice is not mine
My task won't be over
until I have done my time "
A realistic ending to the poem. In life we have little choice but to move on and tried. Thank you for sharing the the excellent poetry.
Coyote

[Carolann Dowsett]

Thanks so much for reading and reviewing.

[Baby Ricochet]

Good heavy write................

[Carolann Dowsett]

Thank you Mark.

[Emerald Seas]

The sorrow is so very rich in this poem, Carolann. Very well written, it is so good to see your writing again. Sorrow and hope entwined within these lines. There is always hope! Nicely penned.

[Carolann Dowsett]

Thank you so much glad to be back :)

[Jack...]

Very nicely done Carolann. There is sadness in this poem but also a ray of hope shining through. You wrote, "Only a few would notice, if I was no longer there". That is entirely possible I think, but I kow the few would hurt from the loss of you and those few are who are the most important. I can not tell you how happy I am to see a new poem from you in my RR's. Let's hope there are many more to come.

[Carolann Dowsett]

Thanks Jack I'm sure there will be time permitting :)

[icelandicblue]

The weight of the poem is heavy. So often we must go on when it is appears to be the most momentous task that anyone could ask of us. Putting one foot in front of the other is sometimes the most arduous think life can demand from us. Well done.

[Carolann Dowsett]

Thank you. Yes sometimes the effort seems worthless.

[Leslie Philibert]

Doing time is a great expression, well employed here, often used by prisoners, so this subtle use of
meaning provides a central motiv...nice job.

[Carolann Dowsett]

Thank you I'm glad you enjoyed.

[jacob erin-cilberto]

wow, this is so sad...i don't want to live, but i have to...my time is not up...i have more to do...or i have some kind of penance to do to make up for whatever it is i did to hurt others...because if i feel this much pain, and want it to end, i must have done something.


sounds like the speaker is taking on a whole lot of weight of something...if only she could get out from under it...get out of the prison of her own memory.

really strong writing here...very Plath like.

[Carolann Dowsett]

Wow I think your review touched me more than the poem. Thank you. Not so much of what she has done but rather what was done to her.

[Angel]

This one touched me deeply. I've been so lonely since my husband died.
I've got my kids, and my grandkids, of course. And my little dog...
But sometimes I do long for a lover's touch...

Beautiful, sad write.

[Carolann Dowsett]

Thank you Angel. Loneliness can be such a painful thing to bear. I hope God eases yours soon.

[Chaos_Collector]

I've definitely had some days when I've felt like this. Even on occasion nowadays I feel this way. Beautiful work Carolann. I hope that things better for you and your life is colored vividly with meaning and wipes away your sorrow.

[Carolann Dowsett]

Thank you so much. Though it is only days that are like this on the surface things are ok.

[Chaos_Collector]

You're welcome. If everything is okay then I'm happy to hear that :)