I Will Survive

Tears were shed
hearts broken
but it doesn't matter
it never does
What else can you expect
when you live in a paradise tainted by sin

I lay in a shallow grave
Lost
Tendrils of cold enter into my flesh
grip my bones
Like fingers of death they try to engulf me
steal my soul
I shiver through clenched teeth
but I refuse to move

Stubborn
I stare at the sky and it stares back at me
Heartless
Uncaring
Indifferent to the sufferings of man

I want to cry out to you
shout your name into the heavens
But it's too late
you walked away and I let you go
You were never mine to start with
yet I carried you in my heart

I looked into your eyes
drowned in their mysteries
I tried to save myself
to escape the turbulent sea of emotion
that I had fallen into
But it was too late
your kiss sealed my fate
your touch seared me
left its mark upon my soul

I wait for death
but it refuses to come
Life forces itself upon me
demands my presence

I scream in frustration
as the doorway to heaven
is closed before me
and I am made once again
to enter into the world of the flesh

My heart aches for you
but I know I have to let you go
to survive
The choice is not mine
it was made for me an eon ago
when time stood still
and eternity held its breath
waiting for creation to begin

For now I must carry on
finish the work
that has been laid out before me

I turn and look upon the shallow grave
that had me in the grip of despair
Where death once opened its gapping mouth to me
now life grows in abundance

I smile despite the pain I still feel
for always the will to live
is stronger than the need to die
Still the pain of a broken heart
is not enough to kill me

I know I will go on
No matter what pain
the world throws at me
I know I will survive

Reviews

[chandlerl]

Wow, I can't even pick a stanza I like, I loved the whole thing. And I don't think it's just because I haven't slept tonight. ...this morning. When I read the title, honestly, the song 'I will survive' popped into my head and I was like, 'ugh'. But every word placement, stanza, fits. 'paradise tainted by sin' what a perfect phrase to explain our predicament as life on earth. Life carrying on with or without you, you strongly choosing to go through motions, even if that's all it is. UGH...I LOVED IT! lol...Favorited in my library.

[Carolann Dowsett]

Wow thanks so much that means a lot to me

[Matt]

This is one of my favourites of yours. It enters a struggle of mind and heart that would be rarely thought of or understood and through it all you pen very beautifully. Its seems to be mostly a feeling or lack of feeling leaning toward melancholy ending with some positive strength.
Much enjoyed, very good, it is so easy to enjoy.

[Carolann Dowsett]

Thank you so much

[Mir]

Your descriptiveness is so good! I could picture every word you said. You made it very easy to paint a picture in your head. :)
+ I really liked this poem! :)

[Carolann Dowsett]

Thank you so much.

[Sourav]

Brilliant write!

[Carolann Dowsett]

Thank you so much.

[lee von cleef]

flesh,is ,beauty ,words are truth,and your soul exhaled on the page.

[Carolann Dowsett]

Thank you so much.

[Salar Majak]

Stubborn
I stare at the sky and it stares back at me
Heartless
Uncaring
Indifferent to the sufferings of man


I know I will go on
No matter what pain
the world throws at me
I know I will survive



heart breaks, tell me about them, i really really really loved the first four stanzas they were DEVINE! thanks for the amazing poem

[Carolann Dowsett]

Thanks so much Sal I'm glad you enjoyed.

[yusuf]

An interesting amalgamation of words and thoughts! I liked how you have framed it! Kudos to you my dear fellow poet. :)
do visit my works, would love to hear it from you. :)

[Carolann Dowsett]

Thank you :)

[1 Deep]

This poem gets a 10 out of 10 from me. I loved the line:

" I wait for death
but it refuses to come
Life forces itself upon me
demands my presence "

Also, upon reading the first stanza, I knew it would be a good poem. But, its not good, its excellent. I've felt this way before, which is why I avoid getting emotionally attached romantically. This goes to my favorites.

[Carolann Dowsett]

Thank you so much I'm glad it spoke to you.

[1 Deep]

Thank you for letting me read this.

[1 Deep]

I just read this again, my favorite write I've read from you hands down, it's great.

[Carolann Dowsett]

Thanks you.

[fireblossom]

Wow. I hope you only have to say this one time. Such a powerful statement and so well written. I couldn't help feeling ashamed...as a man I mean. I think that a few times I may have left good women unjustly. But then again your poem doesn't lay blame. Its about the way things are. I think that is what makes it such a good poem. 'Just the facts' like reporting from a crime scene. :-)

[Carolann Dowsett]

Thanks so much glad you enjoyed.

[junaid altaf]

a perfect presentation and a soothing word placement!
brilliant!

[Carolann Dowsett]

Thank you.

[junaid altaf]

welcome poet!