Pathways of Life

Love lies trapped in a heart broken

flooded with tears

awash with sorrow

I surrender into a void of loneliness

 

Lost

I wander through dark corridors

of the deepest night

aimlessly searching for the light

 

Unknown faces stare at me

as I move through the darkness

I am ethereal and eternal

loved and despised

 

A mystery

a moment in time

floating soundlessly through a life

of passion and pain

longing and desire

 

Always dreaming

always searching

I reach out to the ones who watch me

pleading to be held

to be lifted up in the arms of love

but they push me away

I am but a play thing in their hands

a fantasy to their minds

 

Carelessly they mock me

tease me with their cruel hearts

and empty promises

 

I want to run

to hide

but the pathway of darkness is never ending

the faces who lustfully devour me with their eyes

too numerous to count

 

Emptiness fills me

engulfs me

until I am but a hollow shell

I fall to my knees and cry out for release

but even the heavens have closed their ears to me

 

Defeated

I lay down on the cold dark pathway of life

that I have been placed upon

I close my eyes

surrender to the night

 

Yet still I can feel them watching me

wanting to use me

and then discard me just as a child

discards an out grown toy

 

I know I should fight

keep moving

try to get away from this unearthly place

of sorrow and pain

but I have no more fight in me

 

I am lost

once again I cry out to the heavens

but my cry escapes me as the softest whisper

barely more than a mournful sigh flows from lips

that silently yearn for a lover’s kiss

 

I feel the darkness trying to take me as its own

cold hands cruelly seize me

try to pull me into the night’s embrace

close me off to the light forever

 

But then deep within me God calls out my name

He speaks gentle words of love into my soul

He fills me with His light

and before me the darkness is suddenly destroyed

 

I open my eyes and see that I am now laying in a beautiful meadow

surrounded by wild flowers that are glorious to look upon

Overwhelmed with joy

with inexplicable gladness

I see a new pathway appear before me

a pathway of light

 

I know that it is this road that I must now follow

that even though I walk alone

God’s Spirit now walks beside me

guiding me and loving me as man never can

 

I look into the distance

try to see the end of the pathway

but it is impossible to see

it continues on for a lifetime

then into the eternity

that exists beyond the grave

 

Slowly I begin to walk

along the pathway of light and life

eagerly awaiting each twist and turn

that I may come upon on my journey

 

No longer afraid

I walk through a life

filled with beauty and promise

knowing that one day

one will come to walk beside me

one who will fill my heart and touch my soul

with a true, everlasting love

 

But until that day I will continue to walk alone

lonely yet at peace

fearless and full of faith

patently awaiting love's sweet caress

to light my soul 

and reignite the flame of love

that for now 

lies silent within me

Reviews

[Frieda P]

Wow, this took me on a long journey, a winding road at best. I can't say which stanza I like best, they're all intriguing and packed full of emotions...

Yet still I can feel them watching me
wanting to use me
and then discard me just as a child
discards an out grown toy

That kind of summed it all up for me, discarded, such a harshness of reality. Nicely pen'd as always Carolann. Kudos on this excellent read.

[Carolann Dowsett]

Thank you so much Frieda :)

[Jessie]

"I fall to my knees and cry out for release
but even the heavens have closed their ears to me"
"I am lost
once again I cry out to the heavens
but my cry escapes me as the softest whisper"
You're words are deep and moving and entirely beautiful! And the way you wind down and bring religion into it is even more beautiful yet!!! I really enjoyed this piece :3 Thanks for posting!

[Carolann Dowsett]

Thank you :) I'm glad you enjoyed

[poetry-kiddo alienbaba]

From your work here i deduce you are a dream-walker...that is what they call the gifted ones....find your dream and you will know its meaning instantaneously!

[Carolann Dowsett]

I am a dream interpreter, I know that much.

[Baby Ricochet]

Not feeling so hot these days huh cookie? At least there's always hope and sometimes that's enough to survive a lot of heavy s**t..
I got your sense of hope towards the end of the poem. So two big thumbs up!

[Carolann Dowsett]

Thank you so much

[icelandicblue]

Quite and epic write. I really like the duality you describe of being both loved and despised. To find peace within life's parameters is to be free.

[Carolann Dowsett]

Thank you :)

[Salar Majak]

wow, the pain you must have gone through! i can imagin it, no no i can NOT imagin it, i love this love the ending, and in the middle how you put God's light to show you the way, nice there. keep up!

[Carolann Dowsett]

Thank you so much Aurora. :)

[Inda]

Such loneliness and quite tragic, even the end does not instill much hope, you're still alone with your love or rather the love you could offer. Great sad piece. :)

[Carolann Dowsett]

Thank you so much :)

[Jack...]

If we walk through with open eyes, we may just see that life is waiting for us, it has a plan, though it doesn't just jump out and shout, "Here I am," but it will find you as you find it.

Very nice.

[Carolann Dowsett]

Thank you so much :)

[Richard Man]

Christ, Mohammed and a humanist were wandering down a dusty path chatting about this and that, having just shared a wonderful mid-day meal together. They came to a crossroads and they stopped. "Well it's time to part", said the humanist "I am taking this road", pointing left. " I've got to turn right" replied Mohammed. Christ added "Straight on for me". They all felt a tad sad at the parting of their ways. Then, as if by magic, they all realised that they weren't separating, for they were on the same journey, sharing the same light and merely going in different directions. If you get my drift?

[Carolann Dowsett]

:)

[Tate Morgan]

your thoughts here are so like my own daughters .She too feels like life has abandoned her after using her up.There comes a time for us all as it has for me at times when we realize we want to live and we do what we have to to survive.Cut loose the old ways and try the new .Go into the light . At some point we have to let those things be the past and bury them. I hope you have

[Carolann Dowsett]

Yes I have :) Thank you :)