For every blow that fell upon my innocent flesh I shrunk away from you
For every pain you caused my heart I hid away in my secret place Went deep inside a world of fantasy and dreams Where I no longer had to see the anger that distorted your broken face
You were my dad you were supposed to love me protect me but instead you murdered my soul sent me into a place of darkness with your evil words and vicious blows
I was a just little girl and you were supposed to be my dad but instead you were the monster of my darkest dreams the fear of my heart the terror of my bones the worst nightmare I'd ever had
You lashed at me with your wicked cane tore my flesh to shreds made me cry until I couldn't breathe then sent me off to bed
You hated every part of me tried to break my will I was just a little girl dad and you know I loved you still
You were a broken man a victim of your own painful life of the actions of a woman who abandoned you to the night left you as a street kid in London fighting to survive
I know why you were hurting dad but it still doesn't make it right
Your solace came out of a bottle drunkenness your only friend But rage was your demon and it destroyed us in the end
I was just a little girl dad who loved you with all I had though you sent me into a world of pain because in your eyes I was bad
You hit my mum and made her cry broke her spirit until she died
I saw her fade before my eyes until her existence was no more than a lie
I tired you know to stand up to you to take your rage upon myself To save her from your heartless blows to shield her from your belt from the furniture that flew at her from across the room from the fatal despair that in the end
lead to her doom
I lured you away from her And you gave chase unto my soul Until you found me hiding in the darkest corner where only the spiders go
I screamed in terror as you came upon me in that place I was just a little girl and you were filled with hate
Yet I loved you still you were my dad and I was just a little girl
once again being punished for being bad
and for putting you through hell
Do you remember dad how I cared for you when you were wandering through the streets A little girl of eight alone with a drunken beast
I tried to save you dad just as I tried to rescue mum But at the end of the day I was just too bloody young
You were supposed to parent me not the other way around protect me and rescue me from the fears that had me bound
But instead you fed me to the fire allowed the world to steal my soul left me open to evil men until I payed the ultimate toll
So this is where I stand today with memories that haunt my mind Knowing that no matter what you did to me through all those years behind it was nothing like the pain I felt on the day you died
You see a daughter's love is hard to break it can endure a million tears brought on by the dad she loved but had to learn to fear A daughter's love is strong
you see so I wanted to let you know that I love you dad and I forgive you for every single blow
"You lashed at me
with your wicked cane
tore my flesh to shreds
made me cry until I couldn't breathe
then sent me off to bed" Can't believe you made such an emotional stanza rhyme so well. Good job!
"Your solace came out of a bottle
drunkenness your only friend
But rage was your demon
and it destroyed us in the end " once again, wow.. this should be a poster on the wall of every AA group to remind them of the horrors of their past.
This is emotional and so sad and I don't even know what to say, but i'm sorry you had to go through all that. Nothing I say will make it okay and in my head temporary fixes, fix nothing. So i'm going to say this that you've been through hell and back and you've come out an angel where so many people would have given up you've fought, conquered the demons and now you're the light for others to stray away from the dark. Thank you for being you. I love the ending, forgiveness is the first step to moving on. "hugs"
Posted 11 Years Ago
2 of 2 people found this review constructive.
11 Years Ago
Thank you so much Kee you are a sweet guy with a beautiful heart. Your words mean more to me than yo.. read moreThank you so much Kee you are a sweet guy with a beautiful heart. Your words mean more to me than you could ever know.
oh my god this is so very intense, i'm so sorry you hadto go through all of this hun, no one should go through it, a great write though, indeed, a great write.
Beautiful, very emotional piece of work. It brought me back to my own dad & issues we've had & then his passing a couple of years ago- this poem really touched my heart. Thank you for sharing this- It brought tears to my eyes-
"You see a daughter's love
is hard to break
it can endure a million tears
brought on by the dad she loved
but had to learn to fear
A daughter's love is strong
you see"
...I can hardly speak, let alone fashion words to describe how this made me feel...To forgive your father after years of abuse is Godly. You are a light in this ever darkening world we live in...an example of love and strength. Incredible, this brought tears to my eyes. You are really something my friend...:)
"You lashed at me
with your wicked cane
tore my flesh to shreds
made me cry until I couldn't breathe
then sent me off to bed" Can't believe you made such an emotional stanza rhyme so well. Good job!
"Your solace came out of a bottle
drunkenness your only friend
But rage was your demon
and it destroyed us in the end " once again, wow.. this should be a poster on the wall of every AA group to remind them of the horrors of their past.
This is emotional and so sad and I don't even know what to say, but i'm sorry you had to go through all that. Nothing I say will make it okay and in my head temporary fixes, fix nothing. So i'm going to say this that you've been through hell and back and you've come out an angel where so many people would have given up you've fought, conquered the demons and now you're the light for others to stray away from the dark. Thank you for being you. I love the ending, forgiveness is the first step to moving on. "hugs"
Posted 11 Years Ago
2 of 2 people found this review constructive.
11 Years Ago
Thank you so much Kee you are a sweet guy with a beautiful heart. Your words mean more to me than yo.. read moreThank you so much Kee you are a sweet guy with a beautiful heart. Your words mean more to me than you could ever know.
this certainly left no stone unturned, searching for answers which will never come. you have answered every question within this write, known or not. i must say this is extremely well written and full of raw emotion and honesty. what a powerful piece!
I am Vulnerable
Broken
Strong and Fearless
I am all things to all people
Yet I belong to none
I am Elusive
Unknown
A whisper of things to come
I am a Warrior
In an endless war
Victori.. more..