What do I do?

My mind is a beast

Where scary thoughts take feast

I wish it would cease

But it only spread like a disease

 

I wish for rainbows

I wish for stars

All I got are eternal scars.

 

Voices rang in my head

Filled my days with dread

I hope for anything

But only got nothing

 

Please drop dead

My scary mind has said

I said it over and over

It became a promise

 

Look at me now

A weird weird child

I tried to smile

Its  just not my style

Tears won't fall

What's wrong with me?

Has the world completely alter me?

 

I am afraid of the things I crave

In my head, I've become a slave

Of wanting my very own grave.

I wish to be brave.

I wish to be strong.

But it all seem so wrong.

Reviews

[Raven Wyntermoon]

You have such good potential for one so young and to express yourself poetically.
Again, your 1st lines are well written:

Favorite Line:
My mind is a beast
Where scary thoughts take feast

It is endearing to see that as humans, we may have thoughts of what society has labeled as "negative" or "violent" etc; but in reality we all have dark thoughts that make us question our own humanity. As well as not only dealing with society's "bullying" but also with what we are trying to grasp.

I enjoy this internal dark thought and calamity of trying to make sense of oneself.
Kudos.