What Do I Do Now?

I lost the game.

Shaking hands with the Devil again
I thought those days were done
I wish I wasn't alone, but you've
Already won

I came to you
Allured by your saccharine
caress

I thought you were what I needed
But this was only what we wanted
At best

I'm holding back a sob
while you sit there confused
I knew this was coming
And you're so amused

Damn
Hit me so hard
Like a slap to the face

So stupid
I thought I could avoid it
but this is yet another
Fall from Grace

Come and go,
that's what I've learned
Hurt so much
because you gave
what I yearned

Damn
Hit me so hard
Like a punch to the stomach

Knocked the wind out of me
I felt my heart plummet
Hurt so much but it
Felt so good

Knew that I couldn't
but felt like I should

All the words
Candy in your mouth
I ate them all up
Took them right out

But now they're bitter
it's so sour
I've been spitting them up
for about an hour

Damn
what do I do now?
It seems I'm back
Where I started

Reviews

[Rana]

An acute quandary, when the heart and the brain are against one another. Its wonderfully described in here, using fine dramatic monologue. Great piece.

[Koibito "Nickie" Kitsuy..]

I can definitely say this poem could not have come into my box any sooner. Right now this poem is exactly how I feel because of my relationship between my past and the relationship of my future. I feel like this poem definitely describes what I am feeling right now. The poem itself was written beautifully and it definitely shows the run on of thoughts within the mind when something doesn't go right for us. This poem was well written my dear, good job and thank you for allowing me to read it.

[Careline]

you're most welcome! i am currently in a relationship that probably isn't the best for me.. i accidentally fell in love when i shouldn't have, and it hurt when reality hit.. I won't tell you much more because i want to keep the vagueness of this poem so as it can relate to you as well and speak to you on a personal level. I am thoroughly touched that it was able to help in a rough time, i know writing it has done the same for me :)

[Koibito "Nickie" Kitsuya]

Oh no you hit the nail right on the head. I normally do not date my friends. I prayed and asked for someone to come into my life that would make me happy and I found this man....unfortunately for me at the time I met him he was in a relationship I had to wait four years before he took me as his girlfriend..... at times it feels too good to be true especially because I also have an ex-husband who made me feel the way this poem makes me feel. Actually it is because of my ex-husband I am really question the anything when it comes to a relationship.

[Careline]

haaaa honey, i didn't fall in love with a friend.. a friend with benefits, rather...

[Koibito "Nickie" Kitsuya]

Oh my....I understand that whole heartily...

[Careline]

it all makes sense now, huh?

[Koibito "Nickie" Kitsuya]

yep it sure does

[Alfred Kukitz]

A good, sad poem will always feel like a one sided boxing match. If you hear my bell the fight will end and now you can move on to much prettier poems.

[Careline]

thanks for the support :') and I'll try to work on that, writing pretty poems, but usually my poetic side comes out when I'm upset or sad, or in this case, heartbroken

[A. Amos]

An interesting piece of art, I thoroughly enjoyed your work and ideas within this poem.

[Careline]

why thank you, kind friend! i was doing homework and the first stanza came into my head so i started writing it down, and then this is what happened..

[A. Amos]

You're most welcome