Why I walk away

written 3:08am 9-22-09

I'm emotionally spent
the beast inside
came unchained

I wanted to destroy
you

all it took was a seconds
glance
at what I knew you
were doing

The chains broke free
my beast at
the helm

you were saved by
an open bathroom door

I walked inside and
looked the beast
in the face

in the mirror
only one of us
appeared

but I could see
two
the enraged beast,
my secret monster

and my reining
it in

with no prevail.

So I started walking
out the door
out of the house
across the street
to the corner store

I needed a destination
I needed time to
calm down

emotional reaction
to an already unbalanced
week

This beast I hide,
when it shows it's face

we run and hide

to keep you safe,
keep all of you safe

I'm left to suffer
alone

this self directed
brutality, this harsh
assault

I redirect into me.

Hours go by
still my temples,my
frontal lobes
tingling

my warning sign
still there

this tingling ache
tells me it's
under the surface

ready to unleash
hell

a blackout rage
upon your person

This is why I walk away!