the storm inside

the best way to descrive how my mind feels right now 5-28-09

there is a storm brewing in my brain
its an electrical storm right now
but its increasing in strength

so many thoughts
questions go flying by
caught in the cyclone
building

my mind is fucked up right now
your words didn't sink in unitl this morning

now so many questions
I have for you

I have no control of the coming storm
I've been fighing it all day

I'm trying to stay calm
on the verge of a hurricane
tornado, and tsunami

all clashing around
inside my f*****g head

what a headache

your words hit me this morning like a bomb
going off destroying what hope i had.

When the storm finally hits
I'll be devasted,
you will find me
with the wreckage

half dead and full of sadness
anger and in a flux of emotion

images still flutter
of us enjoying each other

it makes no sense in my mind
what you said and how we acted
it totally contradicts

so I sit here and
try to calm the storm
with litttle success