Someday

maybe someday i will fine a real home where i really do fit in

Someday I'll find a place to call home.
Someday I'll smile for real.
Someday I'll be useful with my time.

But for now here I am.
I'm on my own with no where to go.
I'm living in fear hiding in the shadows of this sad, sad place.
I only remember years from long ago.

Tears keep welling in my blood shot eyes.
Fear keeps shaking around in my head.
My mouth seems only to spill lies.
I remember everything, everyone has ever said.

Someday I'll be O.K.
Someday I'll be safe.
Someday I'll belong somewhere.
Someday I'll have more faith.

But for now this is who I am.
I'm on a never ending path only leading into the dark.
I'm living on my own scared of all I see.
I don't even remember having a true heart.

So called games keep tearing me apart.
Nights keep beginning but they never end.
My soul cries to be heard.
I long to have at least one friend.

So I know:

Someday I'll be free.
Someday I'll be home.
Someday I'll have hope.
Someday I'll know I'm not alone.

Author's Note

someday it will be okay, some day.