I've had enough of this game

im fuckn tired of this s**t dman it okay im fuckn tired of this s**t! f**k the damn rules

It's another round of fighting,
Barely a week into our agreement,
I'm hurting inside but you won't notice,
Because you're not here.

Another day of you saying you miss me,
When it's completely your fault you're not with me,
Another word of you wishing you could cuddle with me,
You could be... if you really wanted it.

A month?
A month without you I thought I could take,
A month was civilized.
I thought I could trust myself, be an adult about it...
But I can't be, and I won't hang on.

Because I wasn't included in this agreement.
You didn't fight to have me included.
You just packed your bags and left...
Expecting me to hang on until you return!

But I know you won't return,
And it's hurting me inside,
Because I honestly believe it's you I want by my side,
But that dream died when you drove away...

Where else does that leave me?
Being selfish and self indulgent...
Thinking only of myself.
But I'm the only one I can trust when everyone else gives me pain.

I could go on, but I think I've reached a point in the road,
Where I realize it's not worth it.
The pain, the fighting, and every other thing,
Isn't worth me holding on.

I can only hope that you keep your word,
And in a month I find you on my doorstep,
Because if you really loved me, and really missed me, and really wanted to HUG ME,
You'd have been here when I told you I needed you... instead of following the goddamn rules...

Author's Note

fuck damn rules! okay just fuck them
just come back please
fuck the rules we both know we need eachoter