Speaking With Missing Heart

all i can think about is what we used to be but what gts in the way is him

I search for four leaf clovers
Just so I can give them to you
I wish every chance I get
And set my heart on them coming true

I deny everyone I know
Just so I'll be there when you need me
I make myself invisable
If it hurts you to see

I walk through fire and flames
And freeze in a pool of ice
I ignore everyone else
I believe your lies

I stay home alone by myself
When I know your with him
And when I become doubtful
I just think of everything we once were

I bleed with my heart cut open
And smile despite all the pain
I pretend and act so normal
When really im going insane

I close all the curtains
Lock every door
If you dont want me to be around
Then I wont anymore

I stand and wait
Loyal and bound
And when someone else wants me
I'm not ever around

I'm only yours
Waiting for your command
Chained with love
And barely able to stand

And you just leave me
Starving and lying in the dirt
I'm the one who will save you
But im the one you hurt

Sad how pitiful
A story can be
Even when it comes
To strong little me

Despite how you act
I think I see how you feel
You want everything
But you cant make everything real

So I will keep wishing
And you will never come
And I will finally finish
Before youve even begun

But one day your gonna need me
And sadly I'll be there
Because we can act like we dont love eachother
But we will always care

So here I will stand chained
And bound by these broken parts
Standing proud and strong
And speaking with missing hearts

Author's Note

(grammar problems)
why can we have what wedid?