I Promised

J.M.A.M i promised once to my self never to giveup on you and ill keep it

We feel the same

but we are at different points

in our lives

You want to play those games

but I already have

and I'm ready to move on

And I was ready

to reach out of the world as we know it

and steal the rings of Saturn

to wrap around your finger

Because you deserved

the most beautiful commitment

that all existence has to offer

but not anymore

Not anymore

I keep telling myself this

because the thought

of being with you until the end

was just as satisfying as warm tea

after a long cold evening alone

But not anymore

because I can't keep hoping

wishing, thinking, expecting

to be with you someday

Because waiting

leads to fading

and you betray no one but yourself

I keep telling myself I hate you

You give me every reason to

but I don't

I don't hate you

And I will continue telling myself that I do

Because the same person you knew

that wanted to lock your love

forever with a kiss

hasn't left yet

You gave that person life

You gave them hope

You gave them forever

and then you took it away

And they're not ready to be okay

I will be miserable

I will be heart broken

I will suffer pain I do not deserve

but I will wait forever

Keeping the promise I never told you,

the promise you'll never know

And a promise I'll never break

Author's Note

I love this girl
saddly she dosent any more