Wasn't needed anyway.

been depressed all day, from when I woke up, too right now.

Did you notice me on the other side of the building,
With my head facing towards the opened ground.
My tears were washing away the soil that I stood on,
And as I cried with despair, nobody heard a sound.

Everybody I loved, they all just kept walking past,
Nobody to hold on, or reach out to say goodbye.
Because as they looked up, I saw the hurt they felt,
And I knew at that moment, It'd be better to die.

Finally; I fell through that watery, deserted hole,
And nobody bothered to lend a needed hand.
Tears kept falling, and my body followed aswell,
And then I knew that, they'd never understand.

Everything I failed at, seemed to be my own fault,
Even if I wasn't involved, in the pain filled despair.
My family and friends all digged my six foot grave,
And then I noticed, I was never meant to be there.

Always the one at the back of a crowded room,
With tears running down my face, and cuts on arms.
Nobody could ever try to notice the depression,
As I slid a knife across my wrists and left another scar.

Now that I'm in heaven, I can be glad & free,
And can guide all my loved ones to this day.
With every broken smile, I can now see through,
But as I look back on my life, I wasn't needed anyway.

Author's Note

Hate the pity I wear inside my heart each day.