When is enough?
I keep coming back to you
&& promise to live a better life only to fail shortly after.
What must I do to stay faithful?
Oh, how difficult it is to remind myself that I have been redeemed
&& that I am saved by Your Grace.
I continually condemn myself for the pain I have caused you.
Accepting imperfection is a new concept in my simple mind.
And even then, it is difficult.
I know that You are the One who heals.
I am afraid that I am too far gone to be reached by Your Goodness.
Agony reigns in my very spirit && it will not depart.
I scream for You to save me, but it is not You who hasn't delivered me.
I haven't vindicated myself.
You have already forgiven me.
It is I, who needs to release the throbbing torment.
If I do not, I shall spend my days in remembrance of my own corruption.
So, Dear God, show me the way.
Teach me to love myself once again.