Detached

if only.. i could feel this all the time..

Everyone is gone and i am alone,
the faucets screech as the bath fills.
The cold of steel isn't what i expect,
Dull but sharp......with no pain.

The water is warm, turning rose red
as my essence spills, family, old loves,
mistakes and joy all flash before me
like drop frame video.

My eyes both closed and open as each
limb numbs inevitably, finally my struggle
is over, my rest is coming as the pain fades
and I float above the tub watching detached.

Author's Note

this feeling.. makes every thing better