Prologue

A Chapter by CalvinnTay

I'd never thought of all my careful planning and work blowing up right in front of my face. I was at that point in life where you'd experience after you are doing well. It is times like these that make you question your confidence, your sanity, and your actions. Doubt and fear creeps behind the back of my head, and whispered, "I told you so." All those months of laboring over the book. The careful plotting, the money we invested, the heart I poured in, were for nothing. The book made a profit of $2 in the first 6 months. I was devastated. I was naive; no, I was stupid.

"Why did this had to happen to me?" I whispered quietly to myself. I was the only one in the room, but I still wanted to keep my voice as low as possible. Everyone thought I was smart; they all looked up to me. I can't let them see me like this. I can't let them see that I failed.

I know I didn't do anything wrong, I was certain. All I wanted was to make my parents proud. I just wanted to be more than just another student. Was it wrong for me to think that way?

The sky was sunny that day. I lied on the green grass underneath a tree by the edge of the field. The wind was relaxing, the birds entertained me with their melody, seemed as though Mother Nature wanted me to enjoy the day. I should be going back to class, it was recess anyway.

As I walked in, I saw the teacher. I smiled for her and returned to my seat, she was not amused. She looked the other way and continued to pack up her things. I read my book while enjoying my breakfast. I didn't see the point of going to class, our attendance meant nothing and I got the grades I wanted, without going to class., with that I was content. I was more interested in finding a way to make money. I was praised for my intelligence and boldness, I was proud of that, but I wanted to be praised as something else. I wanted to be seen as an asset, not as a liability to my family.

In my family, my only responsibility was to get good grades and eventually graduate with a college degree, and I had been doing what was required of me, but I was not satisfied. I wanted to become more. I believed that I deserved more than what I had, I deserved to be free on my own. But I can't be free, I had my obligations to my family - the college degree.

Then it came to me, I had an idea.

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ANTO

I thought this was sound Calvinn. I really got the sense form it of he protaganist wanting one's family and tutors to be proud of them and to succeed in their writing career. You have me hooked for chapter 2 !
well penned my friend. :)