Jay Cee Jay

A Poem by Jade

One of my first poems. I chose to write about a young man for whom I have deep feelings.

Heart racing
We're almost touching but not quite
I know you think about us when you lay in bed at night
What is this? It makes no sense
You say you love me but I'm still in suspense
Trying to be with you is like reaching for the stars
They say to do it but you still land so far
Disappointment
What I felt since our lips first met
How can you deny this?
How could you be with her and love me the way you do?
How could you keep up this front like nothing ever happened between us?
But f**k it
I'm too good for you
Your expired
like day old milk you starting to stink
And curdle
But Lord knows I couldn't get through these hurdles
With out you
Damn, I love you
Before I met you I didn't know what that meant
So why things can't work between us
a metro card that's bent
No matter how ways you swipe it
No entry
And I'm trying to get you to see
That things can be
Beautiful
But your so dumb you wont even open your eyes to the truth
How many times was we sitting in that burger king booth,
Our lips almost met
But they didn't
And maybe that's my fault.
Wait, it's not my fault
I'm only saving my self from Hurt
Rejection
from your number one school and always having to settle for two
not good enough
Not fair
Remember when we cried together,
Said you would never leave me, might even die together?
Yet im just a piece of p***y that just ain't been hit yet
And maybe if you did you might win a bet with ya n****s
Cause that's all it is, a game to you
I was about to tat that name for you
But f**k it
I love you
Do you know what that means?
It's more than that superficial s**t you see on tv
Said you understood that but do you?
I coulda sworn I knew you
And if I have known you that would mean there's a new you
And you ain't never change
Cause if you did maybe you would love me
Mean what you say and say what you mean
tired of talking in riddles
It's like you don't understand English
But I cant say it in Spanish
You failed that
And that's on me too
Maybe if I was a better friend we coulda stopped that too
Shoulda coulda woulda, what's that gonna do?
Nothing
What's done is done you reap what you sow
I ain't put in nothing but love so how can neglect grow
I act like things are good
It's not the truth
I'm starting to not care about anything
And its Not your fault
Nothing's your fault
A dam is breaking I hope your drowning
In my tears
You represent everything in my life that I hold dear
It's like having you cake and eating it too
Supposed to be impossible
But has anyone ever tried to do it?
So how could you know know it wouldnt work
They if it's broke don't fix
I'm broken and you still won't fix
You treat me like a crack head who just needs a fix
Satisfied for a moment but still left with the same hunger
For more
It's like between us there is
A closed door