Can't Say Good bye

Can't Say Good bye

A Poem by Caladoscope
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My Mother has been diagnosed with Extreme Dementia. She is in Boston. I an in Los Angeles. I flew back to see her and my heart never ever stopped breaking. It still hasn't

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AMBIGUOUS GRieVING

No Matter how hard I Cry
It's so far from Ok
My Mother is lost
and I have
No Say
There's a Tsunami in My Soul
She's not gone but she's still Here
Her Mind has lost its way
I'm Not There
She's Not Here
Both of us are
Lost
in Nowhere
And so my Tears flow
Because She's gone but still here
And the tears
They flow unexpected
How do you Mourn the loss of
Someone who is still here?
how to you Mourn the one who raised you despite it all
Perhaps look back
and catch your breath
Laugh at the past
Know you're not dealing with death
My Mum has left the building
And the crack in my heart webs out
She won't be coming back
There is no doubt
And the tears flow
And flow
I

© 2015 Caladoscope


Author's Note

Caladoscope
Just letting it go. Free form heartbreak.

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Added on August 29, 2015
Last Updated on August 29, 2015
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Caladoscope
Caladoscope

Culver City, CA



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