I know this sounds simplistic, maybe even trite or like a line from a greeting card, but it will help.
Stop what you are doing now, and get on your knees. Tell God what you just told us; I know, He already knows what's in your heart and what you need, but ask Him to help. He is your Father, and He wants good things for you, but do this simple thing. Ask Him. Pour out your heart and let Him soothe your soul. He wants to help you, but He wants you to actually ask Him.
Really. Try this. You have nothing to lose, but everything to gain.
I know this sounds simplistic, maybe even trite or like a line from a greeting card, but it will help.
Stop what you are doing now, and get on your knees. Tell God what you just told us; I know, He already knows what's in your heart and what you need, but ask Him to help. He is your Father, and He wants good things for you, but do this simple thing. Ask Him. Pour out your heart and let Him soothe your soul. He wants to help you, but He wants you to actually ask Him.
Really. Try this. You have nothing to lose, but everything to gain.