From This Day Forward

S'ubtle Gestures, Pure Intentions, Veiled Affections: A Year of Silent Pursuit'

It’s been a year since this feelings begun,

you didn’t notice because you think it’s just for fun.

Months have past before I confess,

I write it down thinking you would be impress.

 

Through out the year I keep on writing to show you how I fell,

I’m not expressive of my feelings in person.

I won’t have a courage to tell,

 

I’m trying to love you whether you know that or not.

Because sometime you try to walk away

 but I’ll remind you that my heart

has been irreversibly caught.

 

Like my long sleeve in the knob of a door,

I’ll keep trying to love you even if I don’t know

how to try enough anymore,

 

Even if you use it against me to put me on stage.

Unconsciously criticizing the worst part of me

until I feel like I need to change,

 

Because I know I’m not consistent enough.

As for you who still in the midst of figuring out,

I’m making it tough.

 

How to make you feel wanted? how to make you feel known?

at this point. I’ve exhausted every corner through which

I believe love can be honestly shown,

 

and I have the purest intentions I think that’s the best part.

there’s no ulterior motive just genuine honesty,

to me you’re worthy of being art,

 

you’re a art that’s so precious, your beauty never ends.

so please be cautious, not all the kind people around you

are your friends,

 

Because to me you’re famous, the incarnation of fate,

the representation of parts of myself I always knew

'you' would be worth the wait

 

You might say “but why, I’m not perfect”,

but perfect isn’t what I wanna see,

it’s the overwhelming “worth it”,

I hope you feel someday when you look at me

 

because I don’t know how to love you

but to learn seems worth the try

I know that when you read this

you’re still gonna think “but why”

 

because you are a mystery I patiently want to figure out

because you make me understand what all those poems

I have been writing about

 

but who would care for reading

when better scenes you get to know

for you I would write screenplays

to let the best of your love show

 

some people want to try even if

you’re not fully prepared

I will never be ready but

I’m willing to love you while I’m scared

 

because you know i feel like

you're heading towards a separate way,

it hurts me but I'll always convince myself maybe you’ll stay.

 

because I think you’re just learning

how to exist as someone new

if I were to forget about love

I would remember with just one look at you

 

but it’s hard to know the answer hard to differentiate

the truth from your side.

Sometimes I think you deserve better but

what if we should just try.