Journey of Feelings

In poems, a sincere endeavor 

to show,

depth of my affection, an overflow.

Here's the tale in verse,

for better or worse.

 

Let's rewind to April, where rumors took flight,

We filmed gossip, it felt light.

They shipped us early, partners in jest,

A playful charade, in chismis, we invest.

 

Fast forward to May, in San Fab we roamed,

A crush blossomed, silently, it comb.

Poems I crafted, not much exchanged,

Yet love's seed planted, feelings arranged.

 

June arrived, conversations took flight,

I sent a picture, a subtle insight.

Your nickname scribed in the sand,

A quiet confession, oh, how unplanned.

 

On the 27th, regret lingered near,

For not sitting beside you, a silent fear.

So I wrote a message, expressing my heart,

In written words, where emotions impart.

 

As we agreed not to rush, take it slow,

Understanding each other, letting feelings grow.

Yet, unknowingly, I sent poems your way, 

A contradiction to the pact, as emotions sway.

 

Discovering, while writing for you, my dear,

That you might leave, my greatest fear.

For you know now, my feelings laid bare,

In the lines and rhymes, a vulnerable share.

 

As I unraveled my heart in verses for you,

A realization dawned, a fear anew.

A curse, it seemed, on my poetic affection,

Every stanza a potential love's disconnection.

 

I don't know if you wonder why I stopped,

Sending poems, words, my heart unlocked.

I'll tell you a tale of love's bitter cost,

A story of poems, where my hope was lost.

 

Each verse I penned for someone dear,

Sent with love, only to disappear.

Did they read the lines I carefully weaved,

Or vanish like whispers, left unperceived?

 

I couldn't fathom why they couldn't see,

The emotions entwined, just for them to be.

Perhaps my style, old-fashioned and tame,

Labeled as boring, they left, all the same.

 

In my last attempt, a fling gone awry,

Rushed sentiments, a failed try.

I pondered if a curse in my poetry lay,

Driving love away, no words to sway.

 

So here I stand, hesitant and shy,

Afraid my words will make love say goodbye.

Yet, in this verse, my heart laid bare,

Hoping you'll stay, and my poems you'll share.

 

As this year draws its final breath,

I pen this verse to express,

Gratitude profound, in poetic finesse.

No longer bound by the curse's darkened lore,

I'll write freely, hoping its spell no more.

 

I'll cast aside the fear, let emotions flow,

Break the chains that held, so tight, so slow.

A pledge to write, unafraid and sincere,

To erase the curse, the doubt, the fear.

 

Before the year concludes, gratitude I'll send,

For moments shared, for a burgeoning friend.

Regardless of paths, uncertain or clear,

I'll trust this journey, banish the fear.

 

As I said to you before,

Whether it blooms into love or friendship strong,

I'll embrace the process, where we both belong.

A patient wait, for the path to unveil,

In any form it takes, our story won't fail.

 

Let's build understanding, in trust, confide,

Give space to grow, on this journey ride.

With an open heart, I'll patiently await,

For the future to unfold, our destinies mate.  

The year's end draws near, but in my heart,

You'll always have a lasting part.

you're in my thoughts,

A connection strong, in all life's plots.