Swingin' Party

I'm at this swingin' party

Trying to do this nonchalantly

But I don't dance with other people

So I feel pretty deceitful

Not really being myself

I'm even wearing pastel

Instead of black clothes like usual

She said I'm beautiful

And it felt like poison in my ears

And ignited all my fears

But I was already on fire

So I just grab my lighter

And make more smoke in this room

Cause otherwise, the energy feels like doom

There's a lot of people at this party

This dude's acting pretty cocky

But he told me I should come

I guess I'm just acting pretty dumb

But at least my minds off of s**t

As long as I keep taking more sips

I'm backed in a corner

And he's close so it's warmer

But I somehow manage to get away

By saying I don't want to overstay

That girl who said nice things called out to me

But I told her that I'm nobody

And she should find someone nicer

Someone she could truly admire

She grabbed my hand and said to be a listener

I really shouldn't be so insecure

And she kissed me and I fell in

And I played her like a violin

The sun started to rise

As we looked in each other's eyes

I couldn't look away, though I wanted to

Because her eyes reminded me of you

I came here just to forget

But now it's just turned into regret

I can never truly get you off my mind

But I really tried