Hello, Universe, Why do you HATE me so?

A poem about two gothic people, one Andre the other Aiden (go check out my story)

 I watch as my mother dies before me

All covered in her own blood.

She's shaking,

knowing that she's going to die

And I know too.

She grabs my hand and 

says to me

I love you my daughter, 

I always will

and always have

Grow up and be a

strong

woman

that I know you will be.

I look numbly down at my mother, praying desperately to 

someone,

the universe,

to pull her through.

My world fell apart when I heard her take that

one...

......last......

.............shuddering.............

.............................breath...........................

I kick and scream as the men tried to take her away 

I kick and bite, just wanting my mother to 

wake....

Someone grabs me from behind and

I feel a shock of pain

I fell down to the ground

the last thing I saw was my mother

in a body bag.

being...

.........taken.......

.....................away........

 

 

I walk like a ghost down the halls 

of my own personal hell

Trying to ignore the whispers from the 

demons around.

Did you hear?

Her mother was shot.

I heard she shot her.

I heard it was her dad.

I pulled my blank face on,

walking quicker,

Trying to keep the demon images from

my mind.

I pass a room

whispers taunting

showing nothing as I hear

your snickers.

 

They shouldn't be talking about

Her.

 

I wander through the halls,

just taking my time.

I hated being here

I hated being there

Floundering through the door,

I hear some kid 

talking trash about my

family.

I punch, 

glad to have a

release, a

reason to 

retaliate. 

Against who?

My father

My mother... 

society?

...The universe?

I don't know, 

I don't care.

But it felt good.

 

You're useless

Another detention?!

It's your fault that your mother is 

dead.

I felt a stinging sensation

whip across my face

I but back a whimper.

knowing that just will cause more

pain...(not caused by me)

Instead I look up at you

screaming i my head

WHY? 

You're family,

you're supposed to protect me...

Dad...

But

you yell and scream

punching and shoving 

until I lay on the ground,

hating you

hating me...

Another fleeting hit

across my face,

then another to my back

as I cover my face.

I ran up to my room

(if you can call it a room)

Hoping,

Praying

that

SOMEONE,

will be there to

              h...e...l...p...

I find a rusted blade,

contenplating 

then, 

I dance

a 

  w

     a

        y

across my skin.

as I watch the blood flow

true,

saying, showing proudly, 

this is my 

pain

 

 I punch

I kick

Driven by the sight of

their blood.

I hate you all

Another punch 

Another kick

More blood

More cries

I stood over them

Panting.

I hated them all

 

No,no,no

Violence is not 

allowed,

Go, go 

to detetion.

But I didn't do it,

It wasn't my fault

Yes, it was.

No it wasn't

It was 

THEIRS.

They started it.

 

Shaun, Im Shaun

A man's deep voice.

I stared at Him,

hiding.

Black hair and clothes.

Blue eyes and pale skin

My Fallen Angel

He shakes my hand

Hey, how are you?

Come on 

come play 

You'll be safe with 

me.

 

As the days pass

As the months pass

As the years pass

My love has grown

For You,

My Fallen Angel,

Aiden.

 

I love you.

You have saved 

me

brought me back from the deepest 

corners of my 

twisted mind

Togther,

you have sewn my

black, bloody, bruise 

heart,

bursting with my tainted 

blood.

You had put up with me 

Even though I hate

Everything

(except you)

You were my comfort

when I cried

You stole the

blade

when I tired.

It always amazes me 

You haven't left.

 

I watch you ,

Aiden,

I watch you so

wondering

what you 

think of me.

Do you like or

love me?

Do you hate or

tolerate me?

I want 

you

Cuz

I love you.

 

Every embrace is 

a treasure at hand

I love you so dearly

Aiden, my love

I want to tell you how I

Feel

But for right now,

leave it be.

 

Andre, I love you.

Will you marry me?

I want to be with 

you

No one else.

You stole, 

you hold,

my blackened 

Heart.

So, will you marry me?

I love you so.

 

We walk down a beach,

a private beach,

Just enjoying each other's

company.

We walk up to the hotel,

He went to get a drink.

I went upstairs.

Then I heard the

shot.

I ran, racing

(my heart stops, 

breaking,

shattering  falling into one

bloody mess)

 To Him.

 

I watch my husband die

 Before my eyes

All Covered in his blood

He's gasping

Knowing that he's gonna

Die

And I was dead inside.

He grabbed my hand 

says to me

I love you

You're my pride 

(and joy)

Now have become my life

My love

Please don't die

I look down at him

My Fallen Angel

Praying that 

someone,

please help,

will pull him through

My world fell apart when I heard him 

take that 

one.....

........last........

.............shudder....ing..........

...................br......................eath...........

I scream and kick

Hit and bit

IT WASN'T

FAIR

Life was dealing me the 

short hand

I love you though

My Fallen Angel

I'll miss you

I fell to the ground

losing the will to breath

The world growing black

And the last thing I saw was 

Aiden's body bag...

And mine....

Reviews

[megalOmaniac]

so much anger here.and pain..violent pain.u've brought it out perfectly in this poem.i loved reading it.although it hurt to read of ur hurt.awesome read.

[Lunar Lightning]

I very much enjoyed this poem, so full of a dream-like anger and pain. You didn't try to rhym, you didn't pay any mind to puntuation or spelling or grammar and it added so much to the poem because it was your thoughts straight from your head. I liked how in some places you trailed the words with periods, it gave them a dreamy whisper that added to the mood and pain of the poem.

Luna

[Cadence of Heart]

i was being weird and so this came to be.
So, what do you think?
Do you like it?
Or does it annoy the hell out of you?
Tell me please.
Danke.