Fear

Sometimes day’s are scary
Sometimes the minds just weary of the future
What is to come
Possibilities of love being undone,
And yet I have no idea why.
Making the decision to just sit and cry
Because you feel alone,
Or maybe it’s just emotional
Because you minds going through the motions
Of all the love that isn’t here.
Suddenly ‘Now’ isn’t clear.

I need to walk, yet I need to sleep
Instead of either, I weep
Without reason or purpose
Yet I know this is going to be a long night
Enthralled with contemplation,
And boiling concentration
And just some fucked up situation
That I don’t know how to solve

I just miss your company

And I don’t know who you are

Somehow the absence of an inexistence
Is leaving a scar
I don’t know why the concept of you decided to enter my mind
Maybe it’s a sign that I’m not as alright as I think I am,
Or maybe I’m just fine

I can’t tell anymore,
And words fail as a councillor
But I’ll still write.
You’re inability tonight highlights my plight
So hindsight can look at you 20-20

My thoughts are too many, and this tangent doesn’t seem to end
So I’ll just suspend my insanity for a night.
Just accept that ‘Now’ is right
And let my conscious take flight

And wait for her