Self-Help.

Self-Help.

A Story by C K.
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OK, this is my first story. It's meant to show how selfish being in love makes you, and what people start to think, secretly, but shamelessly.

"

Vazztic has just signed in.

 

Agh. Vaz. He's so my type it's shocking. Y'know, the fucked-up, egotistical ways, the ridiculously scene get-up, the "hidden" talent for music. Even low self-esteem. But don't tell anyone. I'm the only one who knows, supposedly.

I bet he tells everyone that, just to see their reactions.

S**t I love him.

One problem though. He goes for slags. Those scenewhores with the fake liprings and peroxide

highlights.

The ones who pretend they're hardcore and proceed to stand at the gig and are too demure to mosh.

The ones who make tiny white lines on their wrists with they're over-polished nails and, when questioned, look down and say: Oh...it's nothing...

Real touching.

Twats.

They don't deserve friends. Or (my) love. Not him.

 

Becausewecan :D says - Hi :)

Vazztic says - Hey.

 

He's so gorgeous. But, as always, we're just friends.

 

Becausewecan :D says - You k?

Vazztic says - Yeah fine you?

Becausewecan :D says - -_- No you're not.

 

I mean, his personalities real awesome, but there's one thing I love far too much about him: His nails.

 

Vazztic says - How am I not?

Becausewecan :D says - S'obvious! Talk to me.

 

They're so painted and polished, black as any cliche you'd care to enter. Like some kinda manga character, seriously.

 

Vazztic says - :/ dm.

Becausewecan :D says - Well, yeah it does.

 

 

Beautiful.

 

Becausewecan :D says - Chrissakes Vaz.

Vazztic says - FFS ok. Y'know my dad, right?

Becausewecan :D says - Lol yeah he's a proper wino :P
Vazztic says - Well he likes pills too.

 

 

Anyways, it sucks being nothing more than his confidante. I'm just waiting for something bad to happen to him. Then I can be the understanding one who's "There" for him and he'll realise how shallow everyone else is.

 

Becausewecan :D says - Wow can he get us any?

Vazztic says - F**k no! Last night he ODed.

Becausewecan :D says - Omg.

Vazztic says - Yeah.

 

I wish I could seem deep, or even loveable, and all you guys would love me. But I can't, and you most certainly won't. I'm an idiot. A poser. For him. But whatever.

 

Becausewecan :D says - Is he ok?

Vazztic says - You'll have to ask the guys at the morgue.

 

I just want a chance to help him. Any chance. Then maybe he'll need me. And he might feel the same. Maybe.

 

Becausewecan :D says - F**k. Why didn't you say?

Vazztic says - Like I said, it dm.

 

I know it sounds perverse, sick, wrong, twisted, whatever. But if something horrific and life-changing does happen, I'm sure he'll tell me first. He'll depend on me. I'll be wanted. At least, I hope so.

I f*****g well deserve it.

 

Becausewecan :D says - No, it does though.

Vazztic says - IT ISN'T IMPORTANT.

Becausewecan :D says - YEAH IT IS.

Vazztic says - Because it was my f*****g fault.

Becausewecan :D says - I'm sure that's not true.

 

Seriously though, I'll take anything. I'm desperate for him to be with me, around me. I want to show those scenewhores just who I am. I want to prove myself to them. That I can get guys too. I just need my chance. As long as I get my chance.

 

Vazztic says - Oh yeah? At dinner he f*****g well looked me in the eye and shouted that whatever happened next was down to what I'd done.

Becausewecan :D says - What did you do?

Vazztic says - :/

Becausewecan :D says - C'mon.

Vazztic says - Doesn't matter. Now.

Becausewecan :D says - FFS Vaz.

 

As long as I get my chance.

 

Vazztic says - Because at dinner I f*****g well came out.

Becausewecan :D says - g2g.

 

 

 

Becausewecan is offline.

 

 

© 2008 C K.


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Yes yes. I agree with these folks. They seem to know what they're talking about. This is def my favorite of your stuff that I've read thus far. It was very clever, very your-generation...me thinks you should continue this story line. Write a sequel to this...seriously. Haha at first, the first line or two, I thought maybe you were talking about ABT+me..I was about to be like "wassup CK1. you gots a prob n s**t?" lol
good write!

Posted 16 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.




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OH BRILLIANT CK!
I love this, and how you incorporated MSN lingo into your piece.
Im shocked that I havent thought of writing something like this yet!
Keep it up.
This is your best in my opinion!
xxxx

Posted 16 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Yes yes. I agree with these folks. They seem to know what they're talking about. This is def my favorite of your stuff that I've read thus far. It was very clever, very your-generation...me thinks you should continue this story line. Write a sequel to this...seriously. Haha at first, the first line or two, I thought maybe you were talking about ABT+me..I was about to be like "wassup CK1. you gots a prob n s**t?" lol
good write!

Posted 16 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

This is definitely my favourite of your pieces CK.

It's frikkin' brilliant.

Posted 16 Years Ago


f*****g hell charlotte!!
now THIS is genius. my favourite. of yours.
hahaa, i love it :D
the end is freaking magical. you're style is just. ahh. brilliant.
love it.
i'm proud :P
xxxxxxxxx
and i know, i'm s**t at reviews. but yeah. awesome :)

Posted 16 Years Ago


bloody fantastic!!!
such a naive look the narator has and an amazing ending.she gets him to talk to her finally but is too selfish to really love him as a friend.
perfect

Posted 16 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

This was sheer Brilliance! It showed precisely what you aimed it to, in a way that was up front and matter of fact.
Love can be so blinding at times. It causes us to see what we want, rather then what we should.

A great Story!
Aaron Maycroft



Posted 16 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

This is good. I liked how you wrote some of it in the form of the chat room or instand messanger.

Posted 16 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

I really like this story; it's very powerful and very real in its simplicity, and the abrupt ending is surprising and effective. And, of course, it hurts to think that situations like this occur every day - I've heard many of them, myself.
Anyway, I just can't really find any serious criticism with this; the only thing is that when she's describing his nails, I think a word might be missing after "black as." Other than that, though, I can't say anything bad about it. It's good work. :3

Posted 16 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.


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