Russian Roulette

 

 

One bullet to the head....

That's all it takes
As I watch the six-cylinder spin

Like a pinwheel blowing in the wind.

 

Lost in a trance as it spins,

A life that spiraled out of control.

Out of the light, and into the darkness

Reality - the freedom to let it all go.

 

I think for a moment asking the same questions

This wasted excuse for a life, did it even matter?

Playing a sick and twisted game of love

Where I always feel like the loser.

 

Tempted into salvation,

A everlasting sensation - thoughts of death

Lingering above me like a black cloud

Calling my name from the shadows.

 

One bullet to the head...

That's all it takes.

As I watch the six-cylinder spin,

Slowly it stops and I pull the trigger.

 

 

 

Author's Note

I kept hearing the term "like a game of russian roulette" all week in school, so I decided to write something about it. Might use this for class.

Wanted the ending to be kind of open-ended for those that read it. I hope I succeeded with that. As always, I am open to suggestions.

Reviews

[J. J. Nightingale]

You leave us hanging .. not knowing if this sad soul found peace ..
R.R. is a game for someone who has nothing to lose , and wants maybe a last thrill ..
Still suicide is no game .. I have sit with many, who attempted , but failed ..
And their pain, only worsened .. .. .. this write feels real .. and desperate .. and leaves me chilled to the bone .. ..

Jasmine ..

[Neva Flores Smith - Cha..]

absolutely chilling! Brilliant!

[Dayran]

When the pressure gets too much and the outlets limited....a person may well bring his attention to the spinning of a cyclinder. Nice write Cherie!

[Rosallia]

I love this! It's totally dark and macabre, but in a weird way it shows light.... if that makes sense at all =P Great job

[Raven Starhawk]

When my mom first told be about this game I was like WTF? I thought maybe she was just telling me a load of bull but later in my old age I come to realize it is a actual game played. @__@ I can't believe it!

[Dr Ayaz chandio]

quite painful feelings taking the form of words...

[MandaBear]

Wow! I can feel the pain in this poem. Thanks for sharing!! :P

[Jed Sabffle]

I am not familiar with "Russian Roulette"
But I can clearly picture it because of your descriptions here...
This is an awesome poem and a soulful one.
I can feel the pain of being heartbroken. But I find it wrong that death is the solution for that.
thanks for sharing this poem! :)

[Coyote Poetry]

Russian Roulette was given life in the movie "The deer hunter." Would be a dangerous game. I like this poem. I could feel the emotion and the thoughts of the gun and the six-cylinders. Thank you for the outstanding poem.
Coyote