It's Over

my rise into a new life

This is it, it's over, no more pretending

 I couldn't be happier that my life was ending

 I was about to gain peace of mind, of this I was certain

 my show's almost over, it's time for me to close the curtain

 Then I started to wonder how much I'd be missed

 and with all this on my mind I raised the blade to my wrist

 but just as I'm ready to leave this cruel world behind

 something strange starts to happen, I think I'm changing my mind

 the voice in my head says don't quit, you can still get through this

 you know in your heart that you don't want to do this

 I said wait who is this?, the only voice I hear is mine

 he said you're talking to your soul kid, I've been here the whole time

 what do you mean my soul?, I thought that you were lost forever

no I was born when you were born, we've always been together

 oh I know why you're here, don't tell me let me guess

 you're gonna tell me life is worth it, just don't worry bout the stress

 and that happiness is coming, I just haven't felt it yet

 no I'm just here to tell you something you don't seem to get

 you need to see the bigger picture man, life is just a test

 you see god is the teacher, and the whole world is his classroom

but you treat him like the janitor, and the world is your bathroom

 so when you're telling him you're done because you feel diminished

 he's saying pick up your pencil cause your test isn't finished

 so what do you want me to do?, pretend that I'm ok?

 Keep going around and faking smiles every day?

 I'm saying appreciate your life, it's god's gift don't abuse it

 he loves you so much he sent his only son to prove it

 he tattooed your name in his heart, and your saying please remove it

 what good is his gift if you won't ever use it?

 Man why am I listening, you aren't real and that's a fact

 if I'm not real then tell me, why do you keep talking back?

 So what are you saying?, everything I do is wrong?

 No I'm saying wake up to what's really going on

 you got friends and family who are trying to support you

 and you treat them like a doctor who's trying to abort you

 you're a good person, so quit trying to be perfect

 and don't ever tell me that your life isn't worth it

I know growing up you have already learned this

 but happiness is given to those who have earned it

and if you never try, then you'll never deserve it

 then with a blink of an eye he disappeared

 and for the first time in years I broke into tears

the knife I was holding had dropped to the floor

I got up off my knees and walked out the door

I looked in the mirror and saw I was smiling

 my pain was dissolving, and the happiness was piling

 I realized that god was with me, when I was screaming for help

 he just couldn't tell me I had to see it for myself

 not only did he hear me, but he was listening intently

 and he showed himself immensely through the people he sent me

 so if you're looking for happiness, consider this a free sample

 don't think it's possible?, I'll be your living example

Reviews

[Tennessee]

I liked how you were fighting with yourself over doing it. Like the war was all in your head over the choice to be made, just like what started it all. It's good that is all started to change and at the end your were happy. The understanding didn't fully come until the end after everything fell into place with this ongoing voice in your head, the war. I like the composition and the way in which you wrote it. I enjoyed how you stated God is with you and others and you are the living example. You're f*****g good and I can't wait to read more :)

[David Burke]

Thank you so much!! that means a lot and I'm glad you understand where I was coming from it really was a tremendously tough battle but I won

[Tennessee]

And I'm so very glad you did!

[chicandsleek77]

it brought tears to my eyes i am glad you never gave up or i wouldn't have such an inspiring role model. thank you for the poems you write you have truly touched my soul and inspired me to make a change and keep on living

[David Burke]

Thank you more making my night a whole lot better :)

[Sarah Lynn]

Wow. This actually got me a bit teary eyed. This is like super amazing and inspirational. I really love your writing and can totally relate. This one has got to be my favorite one yet. Seriously amazing. You're definitely talented, thats for sure.

[David Burke]

Thanks :) you're very talented as well I'm sure you know that lol

[David Burke]

my favorite I've done is through my eyes it was actually my first