Choices

I’ve been craving this feeling lately
Laying in bed all day see,
I just want somebody to want me,
love me,
and be with just me.
Nobody else on the side s**t,
Taking b*****s out and lying
I just want someone who’s down for me
Cause lemme tell you something
I’m that b***h that’s got you laughing
I’m the girl that’s there, making s**t happen.
But I’m also the girl in her room, alone, and trying to escape from this world.
This place that hurts me so much
It’s like nobody gives a f**k
Cause I’ve got feelings yo
And I try not to show
But you already know
I’m helplessly buried in this hole in the floor
Right beside his bed
Dammed to my hell, to watch her make him laugh
To watch her pet his hair
The way he loved
To watch her leave the sweetest kisses, like I always did
I see them dance together and I’m broken
Will this hell end?
Maybe this is my punishment
For the ways I did him wrong.
I’m sorry

Reviews

[barleygirl]

This is an honest & current-sounding jive-a*s moaning lament. What your poem lacks in lyrical poetic style, it makes up for in being just-the-right-amount of crude comments sounding true to the kind of person this might be. And yet there’s also a hint of deeper feelings as the poem goes on, we see in the end that this narrator may feel she’s put herself into this place of exile, due to her own misdeeds. We all have our regrets & you’ve shown yours powerfully here (((HUGS))) Fondly, Margie