When You Loved Me (Last Night My Life Changed)

When You Loved Me
October 14^th 2009
 

Last night my life changed

Don't ask me how it happened, or how I made it through the night

All I know is that my life changed

 

In the dead of night, I woke up from a nightmare

I searched through the shadows, but you were never there

The crunch of bottles beneath my feet, as I rise to find you

Maybe to save myself, from the dark

 

I’m only seven, but I know where you will be

Next door with the man, who’s gone in the morning

You left me alone, to sit and sob

To wonder if tomorrow, I’ll still be alive

 

But that night my life changed

When he came out from your room

He held a knife right to your throat

And left me alone to watch you die

 

Why did you leave me, mommy?

To watch the spiders spin webs in my mind

That cloud out the memories

Of when you used to love me

 

I see the flashing lights, each time I close my eyes

Of the car that took your body, and rushed you far away

That woke me from my nightmare

Only to wish, my eyes were still closed

 

Years pass by in a curious blur

Like the sand across the beach

My memories are washed away

Of when you used to love me

 

But in the dead of night, I wake up from a nightmare

I search through the shadows, but he is never there

The crunch of bottles beneath my feet, as I rise to find him

Maybe to save myself, from the dark

 

I’m seventeen, and know where he will be

Next door with the woman, he wishes could be me

He leaves me alone, to sit and sob

To wonder if tomorrow, I’ll still be alive

 

That’s when I left him, mommy

To watch the spiders spin webs in his mind

That cloud out the memories

Of when I used to love him

 

Last night my life changed

Don’t ask me how it happened

But somehow… I made it through the night

Reviews

[Zeitgeist Manifesto]

I find this poem disturbing, yet beautiful. You have gone to a place many people deny even exists.
Its like everything is happening right before me. This poem is powerful. Great work.

[deeps]

Such powerful emotion here
I like how you express yourself.
Amazing flow as well
You have talent.