Dark of Night

Sitting outside in the dark of night,
I let them all escape me...
Each tear hidden by the darkness,
The darkness that will not betray me.
Can they tell? See the pain so hidden
The wounds that have been caused.
Bruises, that I don't try to hide...
They don't question..It's not the blade
No scars to show the pain I inflict...
Will they figure it out?
My Smoke Screen is not flawless.
It's as imperfect as my life is....
I'd want to end it all, I gave up...
On myself, Maybe humanity, but not..
Not them, I care too much.
More of a Family than my own.
But I still feel worthless, broken.
I'm damaged goods, inside and out.
If they can't see threw this facade,
I'm better than hiding than imagined.
Sometimes I want to cry for help,
Plead and beg for them to listen.
Like last night, I was so close.
I had no doubt, I was ready to end it...
But I talked it out &I let them stop me
They see something in me that I don't
Some used to say heart, dedication
& passion wrapped up inside beauty.
But I feel as if I'm an empty vessel.
All used up and left thrown aside."
"Worthless, A mistake";
just a few descriptions used lately...
Nobody wants me, nor can they love.
You can't love whatever I've become.
A robot in my own life, living motions.
Robotic Motions, not taking action.
Imperfection is beauty they say.
But I don't see it... Don't feel it.
Yet I still let them stop me,
I could ended the rein of emptiness.
But I wanted them to stop me,
because it means somebody still thinks there's hope.
I don't believe but I can hope.

Reviews

[Criss ;)]

nicely written, liked this
I could ended the rein of emptiness.
But I wanted them to stop me,
because it means somebody still thinks there's hope.
I don't believe but I can hope....
nice lines

great job, have a nice writin :)

[Nick.B]

A great poem that show the cold world of today, no more emotions, passion, just everybody walks in their way...great poem

[BryanaBear]

Thanks