A 4 Letter word For Lost

Is it bad, that I live..

Life is a day to day thing for me.

Is it bad, that I love,

Maybe More than one...

One Day I love him,

And the next I love the other.

Both Pain and Happiness in one.

They both started out as a fling,

then I feel in love with something.

His Charm, the others manners.

The way they make me feel,

like I'm at home wherever I am.

Just one touch, one thought.

And they magically creep up.

Into my subconsciousness,

They're even in my dreams.

Two guys.... If only they were one.

They'd make the perfect guy.

They're flaws my greatest destruction.

 He looks into my soul and understands the numbness,

he reaches inside my heart and pulls out sadness,

they make me feel safe & nowhere close to a burden.

They love me even if I don't love my self.

Is it possible to love two?

What's the logic?... 

Maybe I'm the broken one?

Maybe I'm just got lost somewhere around the bend.

A broken heart needs love,

maybe even just the illusion.

I want to let them go but I feel as if...

They'll take another part of me with them.

Am I so wrong for wanting to feel whole?

or ls life just a big lie full of false hopes.

I want love but maybe my life is full of hopelessness.

love is an illusion, another word for lust?

love is an illusion, a way to get lost.

Reviews

[Phillitup]

Everyone is broken in some way. We can't let that break the rest of something perfectly amazing...:)

-Dell

[BryanaBear]

that's a good way of looking at it.