The blind mans noose.

A feeling of wanting out, knowing your wrong. A lesson for being human.

I'm a disgrace. A disemboweled membrane from a singular cell called a human, A host. A stupid man who can't decide what he wants. he argues his case. But his convictions are not in order, He loses him self to any fight because he can't stand to feel weak. He stands straight an tall but inside he quivers like a child when he is attacked, he acts jealous an fights so hard to keep him self from the feeling of wanting to run away. He is proud to call you his an he will not admit to being weak, But he knows when he is wrong. The over whelming feeling to be yours calls out to him. He loves you like no other. He may be a weak person. But he has given you his all. an i will not stand by an let you do this. He may be just a child but he is trying to get over the past. A weak and broken man is what we make up this inner circle of passengers, to accept what isn't there is to accept the faith of being real. A penny is as real as any currency. But his feeling of love toward you is acceptable. This man loves you. This man fights so well to keep you. This man is healing an on the verge of collapsing within himself, Let him breathe you in. Let him feel his farewells are being standard. He will not cheat nor lay with another. Confidence in what matter most to you. ~Henrietta 

Reviews

[Adreamer's Bluejay]

I love reading your works because each one is so completely honest and open. You share every ounce of your heart with the reader, I mean you truly have given anyone who reads your work regularly the power to make or break you even if you do not love them or know them as well as you know the ones you are writing for. There's a lot to be said about this piece, but I'll simply leave it at beautiful. Wonderful as always. And remind you that you are not alone in feeling like this. There are countless humans who share a similar stance with someone, and many who have yet to feel this but will.

[Brooksfield]

Thank you, i wish every day i didn't feel this, that i didn't have to hurt the way i do, but i'm glad i do because i'm able to use what i know and how i dealt with it to help others the best i can, it's not easy and no one said it would be, but i understand now what it means to lose yourself to one and then to stray from what you believe to make that person happy. Thank you so much for your review.

[zainul]

Very emotional and beautiful.:)

[Brooksfield]

Thank you! i appreciate your post, i also hope i can do better in the future.. Thank you again!

[zainul]

You are most welcome.
Yes,I value your own confidence that you can do better in the future.read moreYou are most welcome.
Yes,I value your own confidence that you can do better in the future.
Go ahead, the success is yours!

[Kaya]

I agree... The honesty and openness is so evident here and it makes this piece the most romantic I've read this year. Your work has a great flow to it. Whoever he is, whoever she is. It's so real and the way you write really brought it to life. I loved this.

[Brooksfield]

It is more then that then what you see written, "Let him feel his farewells are standard."at this point i was letting go of an ex, i had still thought i loved her and in a few ways hadn't fully come to terms with her and what she did to me it kind of become more then shocking to me that i had to do something and my girl friend could see i still felt something for her. I said to her (Ex) that would always be friends. I realized i had said that to comfort her and my self that if we broke up we'd still be able to try again later down the road. i didn't know she would cheat on me. But still my girl friend wanted her gone and it took me less then a second to decided it was for the best. I had really just wanted to be friends but it was time to end our friendship. Also the way this is written isn't from a prospective from a man or woman. It's more like the voice of reason that settles in the back of your mind that makes you wonder if it's the voice of your conscience or something else. If you know please tell me, I enjoy sharing my writings of widespread emotions to anyone who can consider my ranting something they can look at and marvel over. as long as you can see how i felt when i wrote. So thank you for reading

[Brooksfield]

Oh side note that is just the thought behind that one phrase, there is much more. but my net had closed it out and i forgotten what i had written so that last part was a bit rushed and i had left some out, even im curious as that what i had left out. I actually wrote most of this in my sleep. bits and pieces but it came to me and i put it all down and then i hit something like control 7 or something, but anyways thank you again for reading! it means alot to me that you do read and understand how i seen things then.

[Carolann Dowsett]

Completely raw and honest. A clear vision into the heart of a man in love as he reveals all his weaknesses and self doubt. I really enjoyed this.

[Brooksfield]

Thank you, I'm sorry for not replying to your review sooner. It means alot that you like it. This is true feelings behind the stage and stare. You never know how to react when the lights hit you. But from what i have learned so far is that it helps to share with others how you feel. So thank you again...

[Carolann Dowsett]

You are welcome and yes always best to share for sure.