Loving & Losing

Sometimes, you shouldn't hold back.

"Hey."

"Hello, Chlo." I could hear the sadness in his voice.

"I miss you." I hated myself as soon as i had said it. I never liked to admit i missed him, because he left me. He was my best friend, and he just turned around and left me. I needed him, and he left. He vanished. 

"I miss you too, hence why i'm calling."

"But why now? Why 2 years later? You're a little late. I needed you, and you just left me. Why Dennis? What did i do that made you leave?" I started to sob, and i tried to hide it. 

There was a long pause. I'm sure he was cooking up a great excuse in his mind that was completely untrue. I deserved the truth, why wasn't he giving me that? He never used to lie to me, and it seemed like that was all i was going to get. 

"Please don't cry, i just­- Can you just meet me in 5 minutes, please? By the park." 

"Sure." I sniffled. 

As i was walking to the park, i had that horrible sick feeling. It'd been two years since i'd seen him, and now all of a sudden he wanted to talk. I wanted answers, and i was going to get them. The stars took my mind of the sickness for  a little while, they were so pretty. Glimmering in the distance, it's weird to think that some of those beautiful spots of light, that brighten the sky, are dead. We gaze at the stars, not knowing. They're so beautiful once we noticed them, Kind of like when a human dies, everyone gazes at them and notices them. Everyone thinks you're beautiful once you're dead. What a filthy goddamn world we live in. 

As i got my head straight, and stopped thinking about death, i saw the him. Dennis was ahead in skin tight jeans (That looked like they'd been sprayed on), a beanie revealing just that small fringe of his, and a tee. He looked freezing, he had no jacket. What a crazy b*****d! It's winter man, everyone must wear a f*****g coat. As i was walking towards him, he turned and faced me. He smiled ever so slightly, but i wasn't smiling. I wanted my answers, and he could see the hurt, and pain in my face. He left me, and he wanted to know why. 

"It's good to see you." He smiled.

"You too." I looked to the grounded. I was pissed, of course i was f*****g pissed. But, he was still my old, tall, and cute best friend. It made me sad just looking at him, i couldn't help but look at him, and i could feel myself welling up again.

"Please don't cry." He wrapped his arms around me, and i could hear his heart beating slowly. Unlike mine which was racing, like i'd been running a marathon. I pulled away, and looked up to him. "I'm sorry, can we just get this done with now?" He nodded.

"So i'm here to tell you why i left. I was going to tell you over the phone, bu-but you started to cry, and i was worried. I thought seeing you would help, and make you understand more."

I felt like i knew the reason already, but i wasn't going to presume. When i started becoming friends with Dennis, he was dating a friend of mine, Louise. I started to develop a crush on Dennis, and i confided in my friend, Liz. She told, of course. But, he admitted it too. He told his girlfriend (well, Ex) it was true, and she STILL hates me now. 

"Louise, and Amy told me i had to stop speaking to you, They blackmailed me. They told me, if i didn't, Louise would leave me and Amy wouldn't speak to me. I didn't wanna stop Chloe, but They both knew so much, i didn't wanna lose them. They were my best friends too. " Amy was how i met him. He was at her house one day, and we just clicked.

I frowned. "Don't blame Louise. You guys haven't been dating for a year and a half. How could you try and blame her too? Amy, i can understand. She felt i was taking you away from her. I wasn't, you were my bestfriend too. You were my first real best friend, Dennis." 

I was crying hard now, i couldn't believe he was doing this. I took a deep breath, and i could see he was ready to talk again. I put my hard in his face, so he wouldn't continue. I exhaled, and started again. "I needed you, more than anything. I messaged you over and over, i needed an answer. YOU DIDN'T EVEN GIVE ME AN ANSWER!" I searched for a bench to sit, and then i buried my face in my hands. 

He came to sit beside me, and so i peeked through my fingers, how childish. He was mumbling something, but i couldn't quite make it out. He just stared at the pavement in front of him. I had the urge to ask, what it was. I wanted to know what he was mumbling, but instead i stayed on subject. "Do you remember?" I lifted my head, and wiped my nose on my sleeve. "When i said i was afraid you'd leave. Do you remember what you said? Do you?" He looked at his hands, and didn't say anything.

"Do you?" I pushed again. 

"I promise i won't leave you." He sighed. 

"There was another reason, but there no use telling you now. You'll only get more upset, and i don't want that."

I turned to face him, and gripped his shoulder. He shot me a look, as if to ask why i was doing that. I looked him dead in the eye, and whispered. "You didn't worry about hurting me before, so just tell me."

He fiddled his fingers, and the wind blew at what felt like 50 mph. I could see the goosebumps on his arms, and i knew i needed to go soon. If he wasn't going to tell me, i was gonna get up and leave. "Look, if you aren't going to tell me. I'm just gonna leave, because so far, you've told me what i didn't need to know or already knew." I got up to leave, and i felt his hand on my leg. So i sat again.

"I'm in love with you. " 

My mouth dropped, and i stared ahead. 

Author's Note

This is really random, i just typed this up randomly. I don't know how i feel about it, but share your views with me.
I don't usually write stories, but yeah.
Let me know what you think, and what part started to bore you.

Reviews

[Stefanie Holmes]

For not being the type to write stories... I thought this was really good! I loved your descriptions and the dialogue between your characters flowed really nicely. :)

~Stefanie

[Brook]

Thank you. :)

[Saddam]

I got up to leave, and i felt his hand on my leg. So i sat again.
"I'm in love with you. "
My mouth dropped, and i stared ahead.

I think you may give him a second chance. This is veri impressive story. I like this ending part.

[Brook]

Thank you, Ssadd.

[Not Your Typical New Yo..]

I think this is a good turning point for you. Stories can be hard to write, but they're really fun as well. I'm not into romantic/break up stories, honestly, but something about this really pulled me in like I were an iron filling being suck in by a magnetic force. I also admire random writes, for they really just speak for themselves rather than what the writer is trying to say. This was good.

[Brook]

Well i'm glad you gave it a chance. Thank you for reading, Greg. :)

[Devesh]

This is your random stuff? It's brilliant! Absolutely spiffing!

"Glimmering in the distance, it's weird to think that some of those beautiful spots of light, that brighten the sky, are dead."

"Everyone thinks you're beautiful once you're dead."

Gems, these lines are. You had me at these lines, I couldn't stop reading. Which is surprising because you know I don't like this genre :P But this was great! Thanks for sharing :)

[Brook]

Thank you for your kind words, Devesh.
Yes, i am shocked you read this being as what kinda genre it is! Thank you for reading :)

[Devesh]

You're most welcome :)

[A. Amos]

My friend what a great story teller you're! God I was reading and same time in flashback was watching a movie. Simply brilliant work...congrats

[Brook]

Haha, thank you for your review. I appreciate you reading this :)