John

John

by ~Bronwinn

Without that stupid beer
Maybe the car wouldn't veer
Without that stupid beer
Maybe my son would be near

I tried to stay sober, I really did
Can't count how many times I heard clicks of a lid
To how many beers were in my hand
Felt too high but soon I would land
The party was awesome it was a blast
But life's good moments never last
I had to drive me and John home
On the road it was me and him all alone
My vision was blurry and I had a headache
I should have paid attention to the road for John's sake
I made a really bad sharp turn
The transport truck's headlights really did burn
I was so confused my brain did lack
To know what happened before the black

I awoke in an ambulance with it's sirens a scream
I might be dying or so I seem
I look to my right and can't believe my eyes
There's my little boy, I begin to let out cries
He's all pale, no breathing sign
His heart monitor is a long straight line
I killed him, I killed my son
My guilty heart weighed a ton
But suddenly I'm out again

Now I appear in the hospital near town
I'm paralyzed from my hips and down
The nurse says I put up a fight
And that my little boy had found the light
I'm living off the machines beside my crying face
Hoping John has found his heaven with it's clouds of lace
But it's not enough, I can't keep dreaming
On the inside while the outside is screaming
I reach up with my good arm and pull the switches
Attempt to breathe as my throat itches
The nurses rush in to try to help
But they've realized that I died without a yelp

With that beer
The car did veer
With that beer
My little boy is near

Author's Note

Its about a woman who went to a party and got drunk. But she still decided to drive her and her son (John) home. She turned and drove right into a transport truck. She killed her son but couldn't take living without him so she wanted to be with him...